Well 'tis the season to be jolly, to give, and eat and eat and eat. Especially here in the Sault, where I'm sure 80% of the population are Italians. In case you don't know, Italians find it insulting when you deny any type of food that they offer you. Like the book "Eat, Pray and Love" that (like the other 10 books I'm reading) I've gotten half-way through, Italians love to bake you cookies, make pasta, pinch your cheeks and force wine upon you (although you can't "rape" the willing!)
I am into day 3 of my trip to the Sault. I've spent most of the time hanging with my Gramma and I'm having a blast. She is one super lady. Today her and I are going to Michigan to shop and have dinner at Applebees! You can smoke in there, but I'm sure we'll sit in non-smoking because she recently quit (yay, Gram!)
It's nice to be away, leaving all my responsibilities, stresses, and debts at home. This feels like home. I wish I could stay! But, the Sault is a dead town with a great lack of jobs and doctors. Family is everything here, which is wonderful, but it would be hard for a young person like me to make a life here. Maybe when I'm old and settled, but not now.
I miss Mike and Mom and the boys and Dad (although a break from them is nice, too). I'm going to miss out on Dooley's parties (which are the best) and New Years fireworks on my balcony and a lot of potential work and dolla dolla bills. But to be here with my family and to help them and love them is the best Christmas gift of all. Will is a little over 4 months now and he's really taken a liking to me. He usually gets strange with people, but not me! We have a soul connection, born on the same day exactly 20 years apart. The first grandchild and the last. What are the odds of that, eh? ;)
My trip here has helped me appreciate my relationship with Mike is more than one way. I can't wait to show him all the pictures and hug him and kiss him and let him love me. Oh how he loves me. It's such a great feeling to know that Mike is loyal and thinking of me. I could just cry I'm so happy. I wanted to be in love again and I was hoping this trip would help. It's only day three and I've had so many great thoughts and realizations and I know it's going to be wonderful when I get home.
*knock on wood*
Mommy just got online. She's mad at me because I was upset and said her and Jim weren't in love. I honestly don't believe they have "true love" like she thinks, because "they fight they break up, they kiss they make up", like foolish youngsters.. She told me I have a lot to learn about love. I think I know more than does, but it's not a competition.
xxx
14.12.08
It's good to write these things down.. Another vent from me..
"Are you looking at him? Are you secretly longing for him? Did you sleep with him? Are you thinking about it? Are you faithful? Loyal? Trustworthy?" These questions are more like accusations. If you knew the answer, why would you need to ask? For two long years with more struggles than accomplishments, I have to ask myself... WHY am I still doing this? Two long years of monotony and acceptance and understanding and struggle. Why work so so so so so hard at something that just gets torn to shreds every time you feel insecure. I work hard to try to make sure you are cared for, housed, fed, clean, organized, on time, respected, cuddled. Yes you contribute, I'm not saying you don't. But if I weren't here you wouldn't have this home, you wouldn't have furniture, and this place would have gone to shit. I am a full-time student, a part-time cook, and a good sister and family member. I am struggling to make time to have a meaningful relationship because I want to be with you, but if you just want to throw out these false accusations causing damaging communication then I have to tell you, sorry, but this won't work like this. I am not sacrificing anything anymore for you. I am hanging out with the people I want to hang out with. I will go where I want to go. I will do what I want to do. If you can't handle that then get out now. I don't give you a reason to treat me like a liar, a cheater, a slut, or someone that would participate in the other numerous activities you accuse me of. It's offensive, hurtful, and makes me want to pull my hair out because... girl goes through hell to make things work, girl stresses everyday about it but puts of a happy face, girl gets accused and tormented and put blame on, girl shoots boy in the head.... Today I tried to emotionally murder you. I told you you would never ever have a successful relationship if you can't trust people. Sorry, but it's true.. No. I'm not sorry. DEAL WITH IT. I'm not sorry for anything I've done and I have NO FUCKING REASON to be so if you want a testimony, confession, apology or ANYTHING ELSE you better go somewhere else to FUCKING FIND IT.
9.12.08
Weird...
Yesterday after I ranted about my hostility toward my boss and relationship I was studying for my Human Kinetics and Recreation final and I came across a section that kind of scared me. Cardiovascular disease is caused by a lot of things in my life. Stress, alcohol, smoking, inactivity, obesity, and even chronic hostility or anger. When I read the words "chronic hostility" I immediately realized that's something that I am cursed with at the present moment. It's making me lose a great position in a job that I (usually) love.
I obviously have anger/emotional problems. I'm hoping this break will do me some good. I'm going to use it as an emotional & psychological retreat. I'm going to rejuvenate and replenish myself.
I obviously have anger/emotional problems. I'm hoping this break will do me some good. I'm going to use it as an emotional & psychological retreat. I'm going to rejuvenate and replenish myself.
8.12.08
Anger
Nine more days until I go to the Sault. I cannot wait to get a break away from all of this. Away from my house, my relationship, my job, everything. I just need a break. I hate how sometimes people consider "breaks" to be a negative thing. Can't I feel overwhelmed by it all without being considered hateful towards it? I need to be with my family to have time to figure things out. I know what I am going to do about school, but I am having issues with two big significant parts of my life- me as a research and me as a partner. I want to focus on my studies and I do not have the time to be in a relationship. I don't know what to do. I don't want to lose the one I have or hurt the person who I love, but I cannot be fully focused on contributing. My second issue stems from a personal anger and hostility I am feeling toward my boss. I am feeling resentment towards my research group and really really do not want to continue to be involved. It is so bad to say because she has done nothing but good for me.. Ann reassured me and said, "No Linda, you are not a bad person. You are a human." I can't shake the guilt of not wanting to be around her... It's a confusing time and I hope a month out of this fucking city will help me get my head straight..
xxx.
xxx.
27.11.08
Girl
You pushed me to my limit
And now I've gone away.
You told me she was different
Than I'd seen yesterday.
You lied behind those cold, cold eyes
You are now my sorrow's demise
Why did I trust your lies?
Your words seemed truer than her cries.
And now I've gone away.
You told me she was different
Than I'd seen yesterday.
You lied behind those cold, cold eyes
You are now my sorrow's demise
Why did I trust your lies?
Your words seemed truer than her cries.
26.11.08
Amazing poetry
http://bluekaffee.com/writings.php?mode=1&user=1497
My friend Beth writes amazing poetry. Check it out.
My friend Beth writes amazing poetry. Check it out.
23.11.08
Poetry Essay.... What would you grade it???
Linda Brown
Dr. Gerard Collins
English 1080
A Critical Analysis for the Poem “Do Not Go Gentle into That Good Night”
“Do Not Go Gentle into That Good Night” by Dylan Thomas is from the perspective of a son to his father. Using examples of wise, good, wild and grave men, the speaker is trying to convince his father that, although each man is different, each faces the “dying of the light”, physical or emotional blindness, with the same resistance. He wants his father to resist as well.
In this poem, emotional blindness is a lack of emotions or feelings, and because life is comprised of these things we can further say that emotional blindness is a man’s inability to absorb life. The word “light” emphasizes the concept of losing sight. Light is what enables one to see and without it we could not. “Dying of the light” could indicate the inability to see the positive, bright things in life. The speaker is trying to show his father that he should never become emotionally numb, even if his father is “on a sad height”, or, is dealing with an emotionally blinding experience.
The wise men do not give up on life even if their words have “forked no lightning;” their words have not caused anything brilliant or wondrous to spread. The good men do not succumb to emotional darkness even when their “frail deeds” were not powerful enough to dance, or cause celebration, in a “green bay,” or their worlds, societies or environments. The speaker uses examples of men to show his father that all of them, regardless of their situation, do not let go of life so easily.
The poem’s diction creates contrast within each stanza to show that despite the opposites presented, each stanza ends the same. This structure reinforces the theme of striving to stay emotionally alive under all circumstances by showing that men should choose to resist when blindness approaches, and struggle to emotionally survive . There are beautiful, positive words, and dark, sorrowful words. Some words that give evidence to this are “bright”, “danced”, “sang” and “gay”, contrasted with “frail”, “grieved”, and “death”, each stanza ending with either of the repeated lines stating men should not lose connection with their emotional lives, whether internal, interpersonal or external.
The last stanza in this poem is especially significant. The speaker says, “Curse, bless, me now with your fierce tears, I pray.” This line indicates that the speaker wishes to be cursed and blessed with his father’s sorrows. Cursed because the tears indicate his father has now accepted that his life is forever changed, and this may be a hard realization, and blessed, for the same reason, and that they can now move forward and continue living life. He not only wishes, but prays, that his father will let the burdens be carried by him so he can continue to live. It is at this point the reader realizes the speaker‘s message. The two lines that have been repeated throughout the poem end this stanza, as a somewhat desperate plea to his feather to “rage against the dying of the light.”
Dr. Gerard Collins
English 1080
A Critical Analysis for the Poem “Do Not Go Gentle into That Good Night”
“Do Not Go Gentle into That Good Night” by Dylan Thomas is from the perspective of a son to his father. Using examples of wise, good, wild and grave men, the speaker is trying to convince his father that, although each man is different, each faces the “dying of the light”, physical or emotional blindness, with the same resistance. He wants his father to resist as well.
In this poem, emotional blindness is a lack of emotions or feelings, and because life is comprised of these things we can further say that emotional blindness is a man’s inability to absorb life. The word “light” emphasizes the concept of losing sight. Light is what enables one to see and without it we could not. “Dying of the light” could indicate the inability to see the positive, bright things in life. The speaker is trying to show his father that he should never become emotionally numb, even if his father is “on a sad height”, or, is dealing with an emotionally blinding experience.
The wise men do not give up on life even if their words have “forked no lightning;” their words have not caused anything brilliant or wondrous to spread. The good men do not succumb to emotional darkness even when their “frail deeds” were not powerful enough to dance, or cause celebration, in a “green bay,” or their worlds, societies or environments. The speaker uses examples of men to show his father that all of them, regardless of their situation, do not let go of life so easily.
The poem’s diction creates contrast within each stanza to show that despite the opposites presented, each stanza ends the same. This structure reinforces the theme of striving to stay emotionally alive under all circumstances by showing that men should choose to resist when blindness approaches, and struggle to emotionally survive . There are beautiful, positive words, and dark, sorrowful words. Some words that give evidence to this are “bright”, “danced”, “sang” and “gay”, contrasted with “frail”, “grieved”, and “death”, each stanza ending with either of the repeated lines stating men should not lose connection with their emotional lives, whether internal, interpersonal or external.
The last stanza in this poem is especially significant. The speaker says, “Curse, bless, me now with your fierce tears, I pray.” This line indicates that the speaker wishes to be cursed and blessed with his father’s sorrows. Cursed because the tears indicate his father has now accepted that his life is forever changed, and this may be a hard realization, and blessed, for the same reason, and that they can now move forward and continue living life. He not only wishes, but prays, that his father will let the burdens be carried by him so he can continue to live. It is at this point the reader realizes the speaker‘s message. The two lines that have been repeated throughout the poem end this stanza, as a somewhat desperate plea to his feather to “rage against the dying of the light.”
18.11.08
Entry Number 50!
Since I am studying poetry in English 1080 right now I thought I'd post a poem that I wrote last year.
War Criminals
Did you hear the gunshot across the field?
I sense that it is time for us to go.
I did not think it was so hard to yield
The final contract, was confirmed and sealed.
Was I prepared to feel the final blow?
Did you see the gunshot across the field?
The bodies kept falling and being wheeled
Destruction struck us like a savage throw
I didn’t know it was so hard to yield.
And now to our own court we have appealed.
Us criminals of war will suffer so.
I did hear the gunshot across the field.
Our brothers’ graves are where we are found kneeled
As if we are the victims of sorrow
I didn’t think it was so hard to yield.
Of dignity and honour we’ve been peeled.
The blood of loved ones lost will always flow.
Did you hear the gunshot across the field?
I didn’t think it was so hard to yield.
War Criminals
Did you hear the gunshot across the field?
I sense that it is time for us to go.
I did not think it was so hard to yield
The final contract, was confirmed and sealed.
Was I prepared to feel the final blow?
Did you see the gunshot across the field?
The bodies kept falling and being wheeled
Destruction struck us like a savage throw
I didn’t know it was so hard to yield.
And now to our own court we have appealed.
Us criminals of war will suffer so.
I did hear the gunshot across the field.
Our brothers’ graves are where we are found kneeled
As if we are the victims of sorrow
I didn’t think it was so hard to yield.
Of dignity and honour we’ve been peeled.
The blood of loved ones lost will always flow.
Did you hear the gunshot across the field?
I didn’t think it was so hard to yield.
21.10.08
My Loves and Hates of University
I need to get this off my chest.
Loves:
People stop harassing you because you're so cool to be in university now.
Your parents stop badgering you about doing something with you life.
There are lots of people and friends around to keep you occupied.
You don't get penalized when you don't show up.
There is a bar.
There is lots of food.
There is a massive library full of books that you can hide in when you want to be alone.
When it comes to student loans, the less you work the more money they give you.
Hates:
It costs a fortune day-to-day because you are constantly taunted to buy stuff.
It's just like high school.
The profs pretend that you are to think for yourself but really you have to submit work based on what you think they want.
It's not specialized.
You can go for years and years and never really get anywhere except in debt.
They offer limited options.
I feel stupid in university.
The profs mark in red pen and are ruthless- ruthless I tell you.
You don't have enough time to do your best, so you end up handing in half-assed work.
What I wish I could have in my education:
Individualized attention.
Hands-on work.
Specialized training.
Smaller class sizes.
A clear outcome of my future.
COLLEGE is definitely for me. I applied for a bachelor or arts in childhood development at Seneca College in Ontario for Sept 2009. I hope I get accepted. I'm getting really really frustrated with MUN. It's so over-rated. You just learn to be another zombie in the march of the walking dead.
The road to become... the same as everyone else.
*sign* Maybe it's just my stupid English essay (cough cough) that's making me this way. I thought i was good at English. I know I still am, but I don't want to write a certain way just because that's the way someone else wants it. I know I need to learn to write essays the was profs want, but if I'm not in university I can by-pass that. Oh my what to do.
Loves:
People stop harassing you because you're so cool to be in university now.
Your parents stop badgering you about doing something with you life.
There are lots of people and friends around to keep you occupied.
You don't get penalized when you don't show up.
There is a bar.
There is lots of food.
There is a massive library full of books that you can hide in when you want to be alone.
When it comes to student loans, the less you work the more money they give you.
Hates:
It costs a fortune day-to-day because you are constantly taunted to buy stuff.
It's just like high school.
The profs pretend that you are to think for yourself but really you have to submit work based on what you think they want.
It's not specialized.
You can go for years and years and never really get anywhere except in debt.
They offer limited options.
I feel stupid in university.
The profs mark in red pen and are ruthless- ruthless I tell you.
You don't have enough time to do your best, so you end up handing in half-assed work.
What I wish I could have in my education:
Individualized attention.
Hands-on work.
Specialized training.
Smaller class sizes.
A clear outcome of my future.
COLLEGE is definitely for me. I applied for a bachelor or arts in childhood development at Seneca College in Ontario for Sept 2009. I hope I get accepted. I'm getting really really frustrated with MUN. It's so over-rated. You just learn to be another zombie in the march of the walking dead.
The road to become... the same as everyone else.
*sign* Maybe it's just my stupid English essay (cough cough) that's making me this way. I thought i was good at English. I know I still am, but I don't want to write a certain way just because that's the way someone else wants it. I know I need to learn to write essays the was profs want, but if I'm not in university I can by-pass that. Oh my what to do.
18.10.08
Make Tea, Not War
Fighting for peace is like smoking for air.
People being slaughtered is cruel and unfair.
The weapons we create for mass destruction
Those funds should go to helpful production.
Humans are starving a die from disease.
Appreciate what you have, and not take what others need.
Forget power and wealth and money that sings.
The oil, the riches, what of these things?
Billions of dollars spent on entertainment.
Million dollar rings as proof of engagement.
What about the kids without good nutrition?
Could we give them hope, a sense of ambition?
Eliminate differences between you and me.
Untie! Get together! Forget war, make tea.
How many wars will it take people to realize
That fighting and killing will not end in compromise?
There are countries in the world that won't stop - no suspension
Of the money fed in to military expansion.
Aggression and violence do not solve confrontation.
What is this method teaching future generations?
Opposing governments recruit young women and men.
Convince them the others the enemy, their duty is to defend.
As the leaders of nation's sit unaware
Young soldiers, both sides, left dead, in despair.
If we were all treated equally we'd have no reason to fight.
Agree to disagree, we should all have that right.
Humanity is suffering like a thousand times before.
Unite! Get together! Make tea, not war.
People being slaughtered is cruel and unfair.
The weapons we create for mass destruction
Those funds should go to helpful production.
Humans are starving a die from disease.
Appreciate what you have, and not take what others need.
Forget power and wealth and money that sings.
The oil, the riches, what of these things?
Billions of dollars spent on entertainment.
Million dollar rings as proof of engagement.
What about the kids without good nutrition?
Could we give them hope, a sense of ambition?
Eliminate differences between you and me.
Untie! Get together! Forget war, make tea.
How many wars will it take people to realize
That fighting and killing will not end in compromise?
There are countries in the world that won't stop - no suspension
Of the money fed in to military expansion.
Aggression and violence do not solve confrontation.
What is this method teaching future generations?
Opposing governments recruit young women and men.
Convince them the others the enemy, their duty is to defend.
As the leaders of nation's sit unaware
Young soldiers, both sides, left dead, in despair.
If we were all treated equally we'd have no reason to fight.
Agree to disagree, we should all have that right.
Humanity is suffering like a thousand times before.
Unite! Get together! Make tea, not war.
25.9.08
From Facebook
You have to be in my network on facebook to see this. Either St. John's or Memorial University
I love this!
http://www.new.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=37075624174&id=789625211&index=0&
I love this!
http://www.new.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=37075624174&id=789625211&index=0&
24.9.08
Looking For Youth Interested In Research
I'm looking for young people of all different backgrounds that would be interested in participating in a research group focused on youth empowerment and leadership in educational change. The commitment level of the group depends on how much you want to contribute, it's totally up to you. We'll interactively, creatively, and openly engage in discussions around what empowers youth to take action and be change makers in their learning environments. There will be workshops held focusing on different areas of this topic, depending on the interest levels. We will be able to express our stories in the education system through a variety of multi-media activities such as art, music, drama, or whatever you can think of! SWASP funding is in progess, which means whoever wants to commit will be able (if they wish) to receive 100 dollars a week for 8 weeks and a 1500 tuition voucher at the end of the year. There will be all different types of things to participate in, all at your leisure. Such things include retreats where we go away and focus on a specific area of interest, community building activities such as camping, bowling, etc. We will be working on a publication (perhaps a book or film) of our stories as advocates of educational change, struggle within the system, or whatever else we like. This group is completely flexible, and allows you a free space to be who you are and express your ideas. Everyone's stories' and opinions' are valued and heard. It's the differences of each of us that makes this research so rich- our experiences, feelings, stories and thoughts are the contributions we make and they everything that goes on in our day-to-day lives is relevant in some way. So check it out! No obligations- you can attend as much or as little as you like. Come and explore your ideas of educational change, and your evolving role as an educational change maker.
The first meeting this year is tomorrow, Thursday, at 11:30am at The Murphy Centre. Ask for Ann's room. You can call me, Linda, anytime if you have questions or would like more information or to set up a one-on-one chat with a group member to familiarize yourself with the field we are interested in! The possibilities are endless!
Hope to see some interest! I joined last year and it has really contributed to my future path and has opened up a whole new world of understanding to me! I am making a difference right here, right now, and you can too.
My number is 579 8509 or you can reach me by email at tellalikelystory@gmail.com or on facebook!
Cheers!
The first meeting this year is tomorrow, Thursday, at 11:30am at The Murphy Centre. Ask for Ann's room. You can call me, Linda, anytime if you have questions or would like more information or to set up a one-on-one chat with a group member to familiarize yourself with the field we are interested in! The possibilities are endless!
Hope to see some interest! I joined last year and it has really contributed to my future path and has opened up a whole new world of understanding to me! I am making a difference right here, right now, and you can too.
My number is 579 8509 or you can reach me by email at tellalikelystory@gmail.com or on facebook!
Cheers!
17.9.08
MUN
Ah. University. A breath of fresh air, a kick in the guts, and a 740 spinning out of control. There's so much going on, but so little at the same time. Everything I think and feel agrees with parts of me and disagrees with part of me (mind you, not equal halves). It's a whole new world. It makes you feel like a kid again. I didn't have that opportunity in high school, and now that I've reached a higher point of maturity in my life I can relax and start feeling like a kid again. Weird isn't it? That's not all that's weird. The academics are easy- phew. Breeze, they are. BUt you know what's hard? Making friends. The homework and studying and reviewing critisizing reflecting.. all EZ PZ. But interacting with others? Oh god, i need a manual or a tutor for that area of expertise. I do know a lot of people here, which is nice. I've been able to spend time with old friends which is wonderful. I think the best part about it all is that I can be myself. I didn't think so for the first week- I didn't feel like myself. And sorry to day, myself isn't really all that it's cracked up to be. To be myself, I enjoy sitting in the Breezeway, having a beer, studying, reading or simply ranting on about school. I can sit here and have a beer and listen to good music WHILE I'M BEING PRODUCTIVE??? It's like my two worlds collided into one, a merge of my favourite things in life. Books, and beer. It may sounds like an odd combo, but as long as I have these things which I love I think I'll do good here. I still want to move away, I still want to go to the Soo, but I think I will stay at Memorial forever. Perhaps spend the ENTIRE 2009 summer in Sault Ste Marie, babysitting my cousins and hanging with my family, but as of right now, I like it where I am. I like getting up in the morning. I like working after school. I like staying up too late watching House and then waking up at 7:30, I like how on Tuesdays and THursdays I can sleep until noon if desired. I like how there are fun things to do here. I don't feel pressured. I don't feel guilty. I feel great. I'm starting to feel thinner. I feel like I belong somewhere, as I sit here at a table by myself while everyone else is around mingling. I can sit by myself and feel like I belong, and that's an amazing thing.
18.8.08
New Love Old Love
People always talk about new love. They long for it, strive for it. New love. Ya know? The kind of love the tingles, puts butterflies from your diaphram to your espohagus and out your throat. The kind of love that is fresh new exciting spontaneous romatic. The kind of love the you find on a hot summer's day or a cool autumn night. The kind of love where morning kisses are acceptable, bills are picked up, roses are sent, and sparks are flying. The kind of love is the most fun. This kind of love makes you feel great. This kind of love is new love. New love, however, only lasts while it's new. Once you're in a relationship for a period of time things start to change. The love letters scribbled in ink on little scraps of napkin diminish. The romatic candle lit bubble baths for two, the spooning and swooning and showing off of one another, the reckless hopeless and utterly wonderful new sex seems less...well... new. LEss new therefore less exciting, less dangerous, less erotic.. You start to get used to one another. You start to take each other for granted. You start to become comfortable in your own skin again. You want something like new love again. You want to feel that spark, that flare, that excitement... but it's gone. It's no longer there and you are left on yet another search for that passion and desire.. It's not until you've found that new love 10 times over, have it dimish each time, only to find yourself in this endless cycles of sexual lustful demanding hide-and-go-seek, that you realize that new love isn't the only kind of love. When you go through these phases day in and out for a long time until you realize it's repetitiveness and unstoppable outcome, that's when it changes. New love is not the only kind of love. It's exciting, fresh, spontaneous, lustful, passionate, hot, romantic and all those other things that you strive for and long for, but it's not the only kind of love. It's when you realize this that you can have the other kind of love- old love. Old love. When the sparks die down, when the flare diminshes, when the romanticism fades and the lust vanishes. When you show you care not through a gift or a night of sexual extravagance, but through compassion and loyality. Old love is when you can be so tied up with all the busy things in your life and still have time to have tea together and a game of cards. Old love is not having to swoon and spoon but to be dependable and kind. Old love is everlasting. So even if you don't feel that spark, that flare, that romatic touch... don't get discouraged. Old love contains all the things new love contains, just in spurts at the right moments- like during hard times or grievances, weddings or births, vacations or getaways, or just special moments you share together. As long as you can experience new love moments during your old love relationship, you can last until time stops, until eternity ends, and until death due you part. There are different types of love, and even though new love be more exciting and picturesque, it's dreamy, and it will stay that way- a dream. So wake up, open your eyes, smell the roses, and please realize that what we have is truely old love, and you will never find better than that.
i love you mike.
i love you mike.
12.8.08
Mike
Dear you,
The days are long and the nights are even longer. I miss you, but I want to get over you. I want you around, but I want you to be you and be free. I love you more than anything and the hardest thing I've ever had to do was let you go. It was all for you. I could lie with you forever and never get sick of it.. Maybe one day in the future we'll have a chance again.. For now you need to be free so you can do wonderful things for yourself. I want to be strong. I want to be positive. But I want you here right now so I can cry and cry and cry in your arms. Even if we're just friends, that's all I need right now. A loving friend, a caring soul. Someone who cares if i spend the nights alone. I know you still care, but I need you here. I am not used to being alone, I prefer not to be. I know I can be if I really try, but why be alone when there are so many lonely people in the world? I love you and always will. I hope one day you'll come back to me, when you are ready. I can't promise I'll wait, but just expressing that to myself is going to help me get through tonight. Every song I hear, drama on ntv, passing moment, makes me wish you were here. I try to think positive. You're still in my life. You're still my friend, you're not dead and that I should be grateful for.. But i just miss us. I miss us already and it's been just over 24 measley hours. I guuess the first hours are the longest.
Bye Baby,
Linda
The days are long and the nights are even longer. I miss you, but I want to get over you. I want you around, but I want you to be you and be free. I love you more than anything and the hardest thing I've ever had to do was let you go. It was all for you. I could lie with you forever and never get sick of it.. Maybe one day in the future we'll have a chance again.. For now you need to be free so you can do wonderful things for yourself. I want to be strong. I want to be positive. But I want you here right now so I can cry and cry and cry in your arms. Even if we're just friends, that's all I need right now. A loving friend, a caring soul. Someone who cares if i spend the nights alone. I know you still care, but I need you here. I am not used to being alone, I prefer not to be. I know I can be if I really try, but why be alone when there are so many lonely people in the world? I love you and always will. I hope one day you'll come back to me, when you are ready. I can't promise I'll wait, but just expressing that to myself is going to help me get through tonight. Every song I hear, drama on ntv, passing moment, makes me wish you were here. I try to think positive. You're still in my life. You're still my friend, you're not dead and that I should be grateful for.. But i just miss us. I miss us already and it's been just over 24 measley hours. I guuess the first hours are the longest.
Bye Baby,
Linda
3.7.08
A Quote from the June 10th Transcripts
On making the current curriculum as alternative as possible
Ann: "See, you have opportunities within your own curriculum to be as creative as you can. So you can actually start with yourself, and then there's the bigger picture of just actually having a completely alternative program altogether. So it can go from one end to the other."
Linda: "Someone that relates to that is Trudy... the English and History teacher of the Murphy Centre, she is in the process now of creating a new History text for.... I think it's junior high school students, and her and i talk on MSN all the time and we had this conversation and she said, you know what Linda, I'd really like to create an alternative World History (to the group: summarizing what Trudy said, not quoting)- something that she was interested in and she was passionate about- but instead of focusing on the two world wars, the cold war and the Vietnam war, focus on Gandhi's teachings, Mother Theresa, and all the peaceful resolutions to the conflicts in the world.. She asked me if I thought if it would work. She said she had a friend in the Dept of Ed and she was going to ask him; and I said, well from my opinion, I myself would prefer to learn that (her idea of World History as opposed to the traditional World History). So, you know, maybe if it wasn't a core subject and didn't have a public exam, maybe where you start is at the bottem and you say, "okay well, this is what i want; this is what i feel passionate about" and as an individual she took on that task. For every individual..... maybe someone else likes geography. Someone else like.... well different people like different areas. That's where you acheive individualization, and so if she wants to come up with this alternative World History course, she could offer.. she wants to offer it at the Murphy Centre. She said it might not work because it's not a public course, so maybe she won't get a good response because a lot of other people just want to do what they've got to do; and I said, well, you know, Trudy, if you do get a... if you get it written and you do go ahead with it and you are teaching it because... she has voiced that she would take the time out of her schedule to create it and the time out of her schedule to teach it. So that's two obstacles solved. So I said, you know, if people did go to this class, they enjoyed it and they had a high success rate, high interest rate, you know, perhaps the Board of Education would see that as an indication that.... ok well 90 percent of the people getting 80 percent or over in this alternative course and why are they, you know, 65 percent of them are failing the core curriculum, maybe it'll be a wake up call and they'll re-evaluate what's what and make the alternative the core. And I said to her, if you start small, you do succeed and there is interest and success, then it can build and it can grow; that's where you get the individualization and as I was saying to Ann before at the Pratt Conference, thinking outside the system, thinking... radical thinkers. And i thought to myself, I agree with radical thinking and thinking outside the box, but from talking to Trudy, I've realized that you can actually create change within the system. Trudy is within the system under the Board of Education and she has to teach certain things, but she took it upon herself as an individual interested and passionate about something, to make a change from within the system, and I think that's really important. Don't forget the valuable things you have in the system as well that you can work with."
Ann: "See, you have opportunities within your own curriculum to be as creative as you can. So you can actually start with yourself, and then there's the bigger picture of just actually having a completely alternative program altogether. So it can go from one end to the other."
Linda: "Someone that relates to that is Trudy... the English and History teacher of the Murphy Centre, she is in the process now of creating a new History text for.... I think it's junior high school students, and her and i talk on MSN all the time and we had this conversation and she said, you know what Linda, I'd really like to create an alternative World History (to the group: summarizing what Trudy said, not quoting)- something that she was interested in and she was passionate about- but instead of focusing on the two world wars, the cold war and the Vietnam war, focus on Gandhi's teachings, Mother Theresa, and all the peaceful resolutions to the conflicts in the world.. She asked me if I thought if it would work. She said she had a friend in the Dept of Ed and she was going to ask him; and I said, well from my opinion, I myself would prefer to learn that (her idea of World History as opposed to the traditional World History). So, you know, maybe if it wasn't a core subject and didn't have a public exam, maybe where you start is at the bottem and you say, "okay well, this is what i want; this is what i feel passionate about" and as an individual she took on that task. For every individual..... maybe someone else likes geography. Someone else like.... well different people like different areas. That's where you acheive individualization, and so if she wants to come up with this alternative World History course, she could offer.. she wants to offer it at the Murphy Centre. She said it might not work because it's not a public course, so maybe she won't get a good response because a lot of other people just want to do what they've got to do; and I said, well, you know, Trudy, if you do get a... if you get it written and you do go ahead with it and you are teaching it because... she has voiced that she would take the time out of her schedule to create it and the time out of her schedule to teach it. So that's two obstacles solved. So I said, you know, if people did go to this class, they enjoyed it and they had a high success rate, high interest rate, you know, perhaps the Board of Education would see that as an indication that.... ok well 90 percent of the people getting 80 percent or over in this alternative course and why are they, you know, 65 percent of them are failing the core curriculum, maybe it'll be a wake up call and they'll re-evaluate what's what and make the alternative the core. And I said to her, if you start small, you do succeed and there is interest and success, then it can build and it can grow; that's where you get the individualization and as I was saying to Ann before at the Pratt Conference, thinking outside the system, thinking... radical thinkers. And i thought to myself, I agree with radical thinking and thinking outside the box, but from talking to Trudy, I've realized that you can actually create change within the system. Trudy is within the system under the Board of Education and she has to teach certain things, but she took it upon herself as an individual interested and passionate about something, to make a change from within the system, and I think that's really important. Don't forget the valuable things you have in the system as well that you can work with."
The START of a ROUGH DRAFT of the FINAL REPORT!
Vision to Practice
A. Introduction: Who are we?
Morgan Gardner is the principle research of a Vision to Practice research. Her passion around youth voice and youth engagement in education as been the momentum behind our efforts. Offering her expertise but allowing the group to be independent thinkers, a powerful team was formed. Morgan has created within us all a vision and an appreciation of youth voice, and a determination to rise above and beyond what we as youth thought we were capable of.
Linda Brown is a graduating student of the Murphy Centre. She attended the Murphy Centre from January 2007 to June 2008. Her experience at the Murphy Centre opened many windows of opportunity for Linda. Joining a Vision to Practice research group enabled her to discover her love and natural talent of active research and analytical thinking. She will be attending Memorial University in September in the field of biology and will continue doing research for many years to come.
Joey Bellissimo is also a graduating student of the Murphy Centre. His year at the Murphy Centre allowed many new friendships and opportunities to blossom. Joey discovered he had a love of active research, and has been a great contribution to our discussions and activities. Joey plans to attend MUN sometime in the future, and knows that active research will always be a part of who is he.
Deanne Power
Roger Patey
Tracey Stamp
Ann McCann
Carol Myles
Denise Hatchett
B. Purpose:
To empower youth to use their voices, and to be advocates in educational change. To inspire youth voice and create strength behind youth voice. To come up with a new way, a new curriculum, a new way of thinking- which allows youth to be decision makers in their own education.
C. Process:
Start date:
February 12th, 2008
Anticipated end date:
Wednesday, July 9th, 2008
Youth Participants:
Linda Brown, Joey Bellissimo, Deanne Power, Tracey Stamp, Roger Patey
Facilitator Participants:
Ann McCann, Carol Myles, Denise Hatchett, Morgan Gardner
Dates of the meetings:
1. Feb. 12, 2008 First meeting Morgan, Ann, Carol and Denise met
2. Feb. 29th, 2008 Second meeting, introducing the youth participants
3. March 4th, 2008 Why action research is important to us/ our vision
4. March 6th, 2008 Ideas for Change at the Murphy Centre
5. March 10th, 2008 Discussed details on changes that were important to us
6. March 12th, 2008 Deanne, Linda and Joey met to plan for Open Forum
7. March 13th, 2008 Cancelled due to a snow day
8. March 14th, 2008 Watched films on Youth Leadership in their own education
9. March 19th, 2008 Rich conversation about people's personal stories
10. March 20th, 2008 Various conversations; talk about why people love the centre
11. April 2nd, 2008 Joey and Linda went class to class to ask participants what changes they'd like to see.
12. April 9th, 2008 Discussed participant idea collection and impact
13. April 14th, 2008 Brought together all the information we collected from participants and put the ideas under categories we call the Wheel of Fortune
14. April 16th, 2008 Went into depth on ideas of alternative curriculums, art in the curriculum, and making the curriculum as alternative as possible.
15. May 30th, 2008 Planned an agenda for our retreat
16. June 10th, 2008 Our Retreat; Discussed upcoming plans for dissemination, final report, etc.
Places we met:
The Murphy Centre
The Presentation Sisters Retreat
D1. IDEAS OF PARTICIPANTS AT THE MURPHY CENTRE
Social Environment
quiet room for study, picnic tables, butt can, vending machines, water cooler, more food, couches, better parking, ice cube trays, change machine, quiet space, outdoor space for hanging, garbage can near where people hang out, childcare centre within school, spirit building activities
Student-Teacher Relationship
unified advisory process
Peer Relationship
lunchtime activities, hockey pool, rap sessions, promoting diversity, peer counseling, student council
Learning Content
more school books, music classes, computers, other language courses, GED, lunch time activities, book available for general interest, advanced courses, alternative curriculum alongside regular curriculum, how can we make the regular curriculum as alternative as possible, expand science curriculum, art, making curriculum relevant to student lives within regular curriculum, workshops, social curriculum, expand library curriculum
Learning Process
Programs outside of school, more classes per day, transportation, independent courses, J.C., workshops on critical reflection, recognize different learning styles, learning resource room, student voice in all aspects of learning, facilitator led academic ABE
Assessing Student Progress
Mutual Accountability
Awareness of the school system, self-advocacy, comment box to hear peoples opinions on the changes that are underway, bus passes or our own school bus, commitment to come to school, discussion of complexity around staying in school, fundraising, drug awareness, safety of ourselves and others, getting paid to attend school
Community Relationship
a float in the annual St. John's Christmas parade, day care, hikes, booth in Regatta, camping trip, senior sleepover, fundraising, peer-counselling
Health and Fitness
School nurse-medical advice, active living, healthy living, track and field, mini gym
D2. Brainstorming Most Popular/Valued Ideas
LOUNGE
-virtues project
-unity through diversity might mean alternate title
ALTERNATIVE CURRICULUM
-talk to Tim
-Should we do it here or start a new broader initiative
ART IN CURRICULUM
-Finding out what participants want
-Explore which art programs would be best
- Art outside the Murphy Centre (ie Community artrs project) would get connected somehow to the academic site
-Speak with Tim and Trudy
-An art group at lunch might be an idea
_Supplies ( how to make them available, locked cabinet, sign out,designated space)
- Would it be a high school credit course or an alternative or an integration into existing course)
-Explore why youth need art
MAKING CURRENT CURRICULUM AS ALTERNATIVE AS POSSIBLE
- How do youth already make curriculum alternative
- How do facilitators already make curriculum alternative
- Cooperative learning
-Where does funding come from
-Idea that we could try to get funding to develop a program to create 10 activities for each course that would make it alternative
- theme approach
- Could we make courses alternative for each individual
- Learning outside the textbook
- different styles of learning better accomodated ( more interactive, hands on learning, feild trips etc)
OPTIONS ON LEARNING
-Independent learning centre
-In class
-At home
ACTIVE LIVING
- issue of conflict resolution
SPIRIT BUILDING
JUDICIAL COMMITTEE
INDEPENDENT LEARNING CENTRE
E. IDEAS WE ACTUALIZED/INFLUENCED:
1.Collecting Ideas from the Murphy Centre community- When our group began we discussed the changes we'd like to see within our school. Then, when asked what changes we wanted to pursue, our group decided we'd like to ask the student body what they think. We created a bulliton board asking participants at the Murphy Centre the changes they would like to see, and then went further by going class to class to give a short presentation and collect ideas.
2.Lounge Project- The lounge is in the process of being very artistically painted with dragons and wolves, etc. There were meetings with Murphy Centre participants to talk about The Virtues Project and to allow participants to decide what kinds of things they'd like to see painted on the walls.
3.Murphy Centre Clean-up- Talk arose of the outside of the Murphy Centre looking dirty. Participants and staff at the Murphy Centre spent a few hours outdoors cleaning up garbage and cigarette butts and then had hot dogs for lunch.
4.Guitar and Drum Group- People talked about wanting to be able to do more things that they were interested in during times when they don't have class. Guitar group and drum group were both held at different lunch times for participants and staff to come together and experiment with instruments and music on all different levels.
5.Personal Changes within Participants-
6.Influence on others- Influenced facilitators to think more about youth voice, alternative curriculum, and alternative ways of facilitating.
7.Outdoor Garbage Can Moved- Our group brought up the issue that the outside of the Murphy Centre looked dirty. There was a garbage can outside but our group thought that it wasn't in a good location, and people weren't using it. With the permission from the Murphy Centre, we moved the garbage can to an area where people hang out.
8.Alternative Course in Progess- Our studies and involvement with the Murphy Centre inspired a facilitator to pursue an idea that she had. She is now in the process of creating an alternative world history course (a local course) which focuses on the peaceful resolutions to world conflicts, and also includes a lot of history that is left out of the traditional world history, such as the underground railway, Mother Theresa, Gandhi, etc.
F. The Personal Impact
G. Dissemination
Video
Report
Multi media bulliton board in Murphy Centre hall
Pictures
Presentation at Murphy Centre's September orientation
Presentation to different community groups with high numbers of marginilized youth
A. Introduction: Who are we?
Morgan Gardner is the principle research of a Vision to Practice research. Her passion around youth voice and youth engagement in education as been the momentum behind our efforts. Offering her expertise but allowing the group to be independent thinkers, a powerful team was formed. Morgan has created within us all a vision and an appreciation of youth voice, and a determination to rise above and beyond what we as youth thought we were capable of.
Linda Brown is a graduating student of the Murphy Centre. She attended the Murphy Centre from January 2007 to June 2008. Her experience at the Murphy Centre opened many windows of opportunity for Linda. Joining a Vision to Practice research group enabled her to discover her love and natural talent of active research and analytical thinking. She will be attending Memorial University in September in the field of biology and will continue doing research for many years to come.
Joey Bellissimo is also a graduating student of the Murphy Centre. His year at the Murphy Centre allowed many new friendships and opportunities to blossom. Joey discovered he had a love of active research, and has been a great contribution to our discussions and activities. Joey plans to attend MUN sometime in the future, and knows that active research will always be a part of who is he.
Deanne Power
Roger Patey
Tracey Stamp
Ann McCann
Carol Myles
Denise Hatchett
B. Purpose:
To empower youth to use their voices, and to be advocates in educational change. To inspire youth voice and create strength behind youth voice. To come up with a new way, a new curriculum, a new way of thinking- which allows youth to be decision makers in their own education.
C. Process:
Start date:
February 12th, 2008
Anticipated end date:
Wednesday, July 9th, 2008
Youth Participants:
Linda Brown, Joey Bellissimo, Deanne Power, Tracey Stamp, Roger Patey
Facilitator Participants:
Ann McCann, Carol Myles, Denise Hatchett, Morgan Gardner
Dates of the meetings:
1. Feb. 12, 2008 First meeting Morgan, Ann, Carol and Denise met
2. Feb. 29th, 2008 Second meeting, introducing the youth participants
3. March 4th, 2008 Why action research is important to us/ our vision
4. March 6th, 2008 Ideas for Change at the Murphy Centre
5. March 10th, 2008 Discussed details on changes that were important to us
6. March 12th, 2008 Deanne, Linda and Joey met to plan for Open Forum
7. March 13th, 2008 Cancelled due to a snow day
8. March 14th, 2008 Watched films on Youth Leadership in their own education
9. March 19th, 2008 Rich conversation about people's personal stories
10. March 20th, 2008 Various conversations; talk about why people love the centre
11. April 2nd, 2008 Joey and Linda went class to class to ask participants what changes they'd like to see.
12. April 9th, 2008 Discussed participant idea collection and impact
13. April 14th, 2008 Brought together all the information we collected from participants and put the ideas under categories we call the Wheel of Fortune
14. April 16th, 2008 Went into depth on ideas of alternative curriculums, art in the curriculum, and making the curriculum as alternative as possible.
15. May 30th, 2008 Planned an agenda for our retreat
16. June 10th, 2008 Our Retreat; Discussed upcoming plans for dissemination, final report, etc.
Places we met:
The Murphy Centre
The Presentation Sisters Retreat
D1. IDEAS OF PARTICIPANTS AT THE MURPHY CENTRE
Social Environment
quiet room for study, picnic tables, butt can, vending machines, water cooler, more food, couches, better parking, ice cube trays, change machine, quiet space, outdoor space for hanging, garbage can near where people hang out, childcare centre within school, spirit building activities
Student-Teacher Relationship
unified advisory process
Peer Relationship
lunchtime activities, hockey pool, rap sessions, promoting diversity, peer counseling, student council
Learning Content
more school books, music classes, computers, other language courses, GED, lunch time activities, book available for general interest, advanced courses, alternative curriculum alongside regular curriculum, how can we make the regular curriculum as alternative as possible, expand science curriculum, art, making curriculum relevant to student lives within regular curriculum, workshops, social curriculum, expand library curriculum
Learning Process
Programs outside of school, more classes per day, transportation, independent courses, J.C., workshops on critical reflection, recognize different learning styles, learning resource room, student voice in all aspects of learning, facilitator led academic ABE
Assessing Student Progress
Mutual Accountability
Awareness of the school system, self-advocacy, comment box to hear peoples opinions on the changes that are underway, bus passes or our own school bus, commitment to come to school, discussion of complexity around staying in school, fundraising, drug awareness, safety of ourselves and others, getting paid to attend school
Community Relationship
a float in the annual St. John's Christmas parade, day care, hikes, booth in Regatta, camping trip, senior sleepover, fundraising, peer-counselling
Health and Fitness
School nurse-medical advice, active living, healthy living, track and field, mini gym
D2. Brainstorming Most Popular/Valued Ideas
LOUNGE
-virtues project
-unity through diversity might mean alternate title
ALTERNATIVE CURRICULUM
-talk to Tim
-Should we do it here or start a new broader initiative
ART IN CURRICULUM
-Finding out what participants want
-Explore which art programs would be best
- Art outside the Murphy Centre (ie Community artrs project) would get connected somehow to the academic site
-Speak with Tim and Trudy
-An art group at lunch might be an idea
_Supplies ( how to make them available, locked cabinet, sign out,designated space)
- Would it be a high school credit course or an alternative or an integration into existing course)
-Explore why youth need art
MAKING CURRENT CURRICULUM AS ALTERNATIVE AS POSSIBLE
- How do youth already make curriculum alternative
- How do facilitators already make curriculum alternative
- Cooperative learning
-Where does funding come from
-Idea that we could try to get funding to develop a program to create 10 activities for each course that would make it alternative
- theme approach
- Could we make courses alternative for each individual
- Learning outside the textbook
- different styles of learning better accomodated ( more interactive, hands on learning, feild trips etc)
OPTIONS ON LEARNING
-Independent learning centre
-In class
-At home
ACTIVE LIVING
- issue of conflict resolution
SPIRIT BUILDING
JUDICIAL COMMITTEE
INDEPENDENT LEARNING CENTRE
E. IDEAS WE ACTUALIZED/INFLUENCED:
1.Collecting Ideas from the Murphy Centre community- When our group began we discussed the changes we'd like to see within our school. Then, when asked what changes we wanted to pursue, our group decided we'd like to ask the student body what they think. We created a bulliton board asking participants at the Murphy Centre the changes they would like to see, and then went further by going class to class to give a short presentation and collect ideas.
2.Lounge Project- The lounge is in the process of being very artistically painted with dragons and wolves, etc. There were meetings with Murphy Centre participants to talk about The Virtues Project and to allow participants to decide what kinds of things they'd like to see painted on the walls.
3.Murphy Centre Clean-up- Talk arose of the outside of the Murphy Centre looking dirty. Participants and staff at the Murphy Centre spent a few hours outdoors cleaning up garbage and cigarette butts and then had hot dogs for lunch.
4.Guitar and Drum Group- People talked about wanting to be able to do more things that they were interested in during times when they don't have class. Guitar group and drum group were both held at different lunch times for participants and staff to come together and experiment with instruments and music on all different levels.
5.Personal Changes within Participants-
6.Influence on others- Influenced facilitators to think more about youth voice, alternative curriculum, and alternative ways of facilitating.
7.Outdoor Garbage Can Moved- Our group brought up the issue that the outside of the Murphy Centre looked dirty. There was a garbage can outside but our group thought that it wasn't in a good location, and people weren't using it. With the permission from the Murphy Centre, we moved the garbage can to an area where people hang out.
8.Alternative Course in Progess- Our studies and involvement with the Murphy Centre inspired a facilitator to pursue an idea that she had. She is now in the process of creating an alternative world history course (a local course) which focuses on the peaceful resolutions to world conflicts, and also includes a lot of history that is left out of the traditional world history, such as the underground railway, Mother Theresa, Gandhi, etc.
F. The Personal Impact
G. Dissemination
Video
Report
Multi media bulliton board in Murphy Centre hall
Pictures
Presentation at Murphy Centre's September orientation
Presentation to different community groups with high numbers of marginilized youth
2.7.08
I love my job
My very first blog entry, how it rings so true today!
"Hello Everyone,
I was first drawn to the idea of a research group by a flashy red sign posted in the Murphy Center hallway. Being the type of person who is automatically attracted to anything having to do with science, I joined up. I must admit, I walked into Ann's classroom expecting to be the guinea pig for a student research survey. I'd fill out a bunch of sheets, give my 2 cents about my education, and be on my way. I've done things like this before and rarely gave it a second thought afterwards. Once the first meeting started I was quick to realize that I was very wrong- it wasn't at all what I expected it to be. It was 100 times better! Far more exciting than simply taking part in a one-time survey.
When I learned that what I had joined was far more than I expected, I was thrilled. I am going to be directly involved in improvements, changes, updates, and more at the Murphy Center. I am going to have the opportunity to work along with some very influential people whom I admire very much, with the common goal and passion of improving education. I am going to learn new skills and hopefully discover some hidden talents that I didn't know I had. I feel as if this is an ample opportunity to have my voice heard. I am confident that I can represent and relate to the needs and wants of the students as well as instructors at the Murphy Center. I am excited that we have been lucky enough to receive a grant from Memorial to put toward our research, and I can't wait to see what the future holds!
This entire ordeal really struck home for me. I was recently accepted into Memorial University for the fall semester in September, and I am planning on going into the Sciences. I feel as though I am at an age where my choices and decisions are very crucial. I have all sorts of different paths set out to choose from and research was definately in my future. I have recently been frequently discussing my want to be a researcher- or a scientist I called it, as well as an educator. I have a passion for people and science so I figured the two were a great mix. I also chose MUN as I wanted to get affiliated with the political world and be some sort of an activist. I have a lot of ideas and a need to put my mind to the test (as well as a lot of complaints about "the system").
When I met Morgan I admired her instantly. She is in the position that I want to see myself in in the future. She is what I would consider my role model. I believe our team is very strong and capable of doing great things. I must also include that if it wasn't for the Murphy Center, I may not have ever been associated with such a wonderful group. I see this as the beginning of my career, really, which is a big huge step for me. Thanks everyone, for this opportunity, and I look forward to gettin' to it!"
I started my job with the Murphy Centre today. Morgan and I get to work together for 6 weeks. Wow! It's already awesome.
"Hello Everyone,
I was first drawn to the idea of a research group by a flashy red sign posted in the Murphy Center hallway. Being the type of person who is automatically attracted to anything having to do with science, I joined up. I must admit, I walked into Ann's classroom expecting to be the guinea pig for a student research survey. I'd fill out a bunch of sheets, give my 2 cents about my education, and be on my way. I've done things like this before and rarely gave it a second thought afterwards. Once the first meeting started I was quick to realize that I was very wrong- it wasn't at all what I expected it to be. It was 100 times better! Far more exciting than simply taking part in a one-time survey.
When I learned that what I had joined was far more than I expected, I was thrilled. I am going to be directly involved in improvements, changes, updates, and more at the Murphy Center. I am going to have the opportunity to work along with some very influential people whom I admire very much, with the common goal and passion of improving education. I am going to learn new skills and hopefully discover some hidden talents that I didn't know I had. I feel as if this is an ample opportunity to have my voice heard. I am confident that I can represent and relate to the needs and wants of the students as well as instructors at the Murphy Center. I am excited that we have been lucky enough to receive a grant from Memorial to put toward our research, and I can't wait to see what the future holds!
This entire ordeal really struck home for me. I was recently accepted into Memorial University for the fall semester in September, and I am planning on going into the Sciences. I feel as though I am at an age where my choices and decisions are very crucial. I have all sorts of different paths set out to choose from and research was definately in my future. I have recently been frequently discussing my want to be a researcher- or a scientist I called it, as well as an educator. I have a passion for people and science so I figured the two were a great mix. I also chose MUN as I wanted to get affiliated with the political world and be some sort of an activist. I have a lot of ideas and a need to put my mind to the test (as well as a lot of complaints about "the system").
When I met Morgan I admired her instantly. She is in the position that I want to see myself in in the future. She is what I would consider my role model. I believe our team is very strong and capable of doing great things. I must also include that if it wasn't for the Murphy Center, I may not have ever been associated with such a wonderful group. I see this as the beginning of my career, really, which is a big huge step for me. Thanks everyone, for this opportunity, and I look forward to gettin' to it!"
I started my job with the Murphy Centre today. Morgan and I get to work together for 6 weeks. Wow! It's already awesome.
10.6.08
Our Retreat Day- A Great Success part 1
Hello my little darlings.
Thank you to Joey, Carol, Ann, Denise and Morgan for all your thoughts at the retreat today!
Roger, Deanne and Tracey, we missed having you there!
We met at the magnificent Presentation Sisters retreat at 9:00am. It is such a beautiful place next to a pond and we were very happy to have the opportunity to gather there. We were greeted by one of the sisters and she showed us into our meeting area. Everyone brought along some food and it was all very exciting.
We started our meeting by decided what to do first. We decided to take some time to talk about our experience with reading over the transcripts, and share our ideas on what we pulled from them. I asked if Carol would take notes for us; thank you Carol!
1. I started as I had transcript number one. I outlined the points that I found interesting which led into many discussions around the topics we've been focusing on throughout the research process. I talked a lot about ideas we had in the past that we turned into action, such as the need to go outside the group and into the Murphy Centre community, and information gathering. We talked about how we find local knowledge to be more real than written or textbook knowledge, and gave it meaning to us by talking about different ways we engage in discovering local knowledge (IE: Denise talks to other parents to gain knowledge on parenting). I outlined some ideas of things I felt strongly about and wanted to discuss more in the future, such as semesterized high schools. I also dug up ideas that for some reason were forgotten or buried, with hopes of renewing the research in regards to them. I also picked out key points and feelings that different individuals had and posed the question of, "Do they feel the same way now?". These are just brief notes on what I had to say (trust me, they don't do it justice). We tape recorded this session so it will be available for those of you who were absent to go over on your own when it is ready.
2. After I was finished going though my transcript Joey started on his. He also highlighted the points that he felt close to, such as fund raising, active living, etc. Joey also brought up forgiveness, and although he did not initially think he was on topic with what we were talking about, we were quick to let him know that forgiveness is a huge part of what we are doing and is really really relevant. This concept of forgiveness especially hit home for Denise who shared some thoughts of what forgiveness means to her and within our research. Again, for those of you who were absent you will be able to go over the new transcripts in more detail to get a better understanding of the richness and wonderfulness of our conversations.
3. Ann then talked about the points she picked out from her transcript. She talked about the current system and how people's different learning styles can be accommodated in a classroom setting, but when it comes to the public exam it cannot. We discussed this in more detail. Ann felt especially passionate about my use of the word 'togetherness' and we discussed ways to achieve togetherness within the Murphy Centre. Ann told us about her relationship with Roger, and how what began as Roger's want for art in the centre's curriculum, throughout this research, transformed into a knowing of his future career path in the arts. Ann thanks this research group for allowed her to build a relationship with Roger, which may have greatly influenced his future path. We talked about where we are now in relation to where we were before we started this research, and we all agreed that in one way or another it greatly impacted our lives. We discussed the ideas of a JC and lots lots more. Again, you can read the new transcripts to capture all of this.
4. We took a break to have lunch. Thank you everyone for contributing those delicious treats, and thank you Dad (Harold Brown) for donating a pizza and some other items to our research group.
5. After lunch break Denise (who had to leave early) talked a bit about the powerfulness of dialog. Although she did not get a chance to go over a transcript, she had a lot of wonderful insight on what the research means for her and how it's impacted her life. Thank you Denise!
6. Then Carol went on to talk about the things in her section of the transcript. Unfortunately the notes I have here were taken by Carol, so she hasn't really left me much about what she said, but from what I can remember she mainly reinforced ideas that had already been brought forth. When I read the transcripts I know I'll kick myself for forgetting, but forgive me, it's been a lot to ingest today! Sorry Carol! <3
7. For the last hour or so we worked on a few things. First, we created a table of contents for our final report. Not in any specific order, we listed the things we'd like to include. Please, Roger, Deanne and Tracey, please feel free to offer suggestions for this!
Table of Contents (in no specific order)
- Introduction to US- Who are we?
- Overview of purpose and description of research.
- Our research process
- Changes we wanted, changes we actualized, and the personal impact it had on us.
- The 'next steps' section (into motion; future suggestions)
- Comparison between facilitator and participant interviews using the Wheel of Fortune.
- Narratives/ Personal Stories/ Quotes
- The speech from achievement night (more details to follow)
- Photos
- Our blogging experience (use sample blogs)
- Dissemination (how we release our findings)
- Helps and Hinders
8. Then we brainstormed the "Helpers" and "Hinders" that we encountered throughout our research.
Helpers:
- Flexibility of action research model (Morgan?)
- Diversity of our group
- Tim Turner and Tim Thorne
- Food (Ann)
- Financial support from MUN (Linda)
- Sense of connection (a reoccurring theme)
- Informality (fun, real, non-judgmental) (Morgan/Ann?)
- It was motivation
- Supports and relationships
- Passions
- Sense of responsibility (Linda)
- Feeling privileged to hear people's stories (Carol)
- Making a difference (Joey)
- Being together
- Seeing changes happen (Joey)
- Blog
- Attitude
- It's organic (Ann)
- Equality of everyone involved
- Quality of group
- Diversity and commonality
- A strong belief and longing for youth voice
- The action we take
- A lot of positive feedback from facilitators
Hinders:
- Time constraints (All)
- Personal/ Professional demands (Ann)
- Weather (Carol)
- Illness/ Health Issues
- Start time too late in the year (Morgan)
- Lack of interest from participants (Linda)
- Missed meetings
- Administrative red tape (Linda)
- Students not going to school (Joey)
- Passions
- Technological stuff (trouble with blog, god forbid!)
- Personal perceptions can limit things (Ann?)
- Policies
- Lack of respect for action research (because it's not quantitative people treat it as if it's not legitimate) (Ann)
- Fear of not being able to make a difference (Joey)
- Overwhelming (Linda)
- Inconsistent attendance
- Responsibility
I then looked at our long list of Hinders and I challenged the group to derive some positive for all these negatives. The group liked this idea, and we started brainstorming what kinds of things we learned and obstacles we've overcome despite our hinders. The list is as follows:
- (In regards to time) We did our best to be flexible with time.
- Blogging, Transcripts
- We did it even if we were afraid
- We worked around the constraints of policy
- We're more trusting as individuals
- We capitalized on the advantages of having fewer people
- MUN budget didn't allow food so we found our own (either made it ourself or found donations)
- We became more connected
- Our meetings were so rich and that outweighs the hinders
- We gained a passion for social justice in community and education
- We learned adaptability
- We were in a place where we were welcomed and accepted
9. We wrapped up, and took some pictures for a bulletin we want to create for the Murphy Centre directed at raising awareness of what we have accomplished. We decided we still need to meet as a team to go over details of the final report, and to discuss our plans for dissemination.
Hope this is helpful! Again, I cannot emphasize enough how important it is to read over the transcripts. I cannot even come close to capturing the richness of our day at the retreat and I hope everyone can make some time to look over it! If some of you who were at the retreat could fill in some of the missing pieces that would be great!
Praise Jesus!!!
Thank you to Joey, Carol, Ann, Denise and Morgan for all your thoughts at the retreat today!
Roger, Deanne and Tracey, we missed having you there!
We met at the magnificent Presentation Sisters retreat at 9:00am. It is such a beautiful place next to a pond and we were very happy to have the opportunity to gather there. We were greeted by one of the sisters and she showed us into our meeting area. Everyone brought along some food and it was all very exciting.
We started our meeting by decided what to do first. We decided to take some time to talk about our experience with reading over the transcripts, and share our ideas on what we pulled from them. I asked if Carol would take notes for us; thank you Carol!
1. I started as I had transcript number one. I outlined the points that I found interesting which led into many discussions around the topics we've been focusing on throughout the research process. I talked a lot about ideas we had in the past that we turned into action, such as the need to go outside the group and into the Murphy Centre community, and information gathering. We talked about how we find local knowledge to be more real than written or textbook knowledge, and gave it meaning to us by talking about different ways we engage in discovering local knowledge (IE: Denise talks to other parents to gain knowledge on parenting). I outlined some ideas of things I felt strongly about and wanted to discuss more in the future, such as semesterized high schools. I also dug up ideas that for some reason were forgotten or buried, with hopes of renewing the research in regards to them. I also picked out key points and feelings that different individuals had and posed the question of, "Do they feel the same way now?". These are just brief notes on what I had to say (trust me, they don't do it justice). We tape recorded this session so it will be available for those of you who were absent to go over on your own when it is ready.
2. After I was finished going though my transcript Joey started on his. He also highlighted the points that he felt close to, such as fund raising, active living, etc. Joey also brought up forgiveness, and although he did not initially think he was on topic with what we were talking about, we were quick to let him know that forgiveness is a huge part of what we are doing and is really really relevant. This concept of forgiveness especially hit home for Denise who shared some thoughts of what forgiveness means to her and within our research. Again, for those of you who were absent you will be able to go over the new transcripts in more detail to get a better understanding of the richness and wonderfulness of our conversations.
3. Ann then talked about the points she picked out from her transcript. She talked about the current system and how people's different learning styles can be accommodated in a classroom setting, but when it comes to the public exam it cannot. We discussed this in more detail. Ann felt especially passionate about my use of the word 'togetherness' and we discussed ways to achieve togetherness within the Murphy Centre. Ann told us about her relationship with Roger, and how what began as Roger's want for art in the centre's curriculum, throughout this research, transformed into a knowing of his future career path in the arts. Ann thanks this research group for allowed her to build a relationship with Roger, which may have greatly influenced his future path. We talked about where we are now in relation to where we were before we started this research, and we all agreed that in one way or another it greatly impacted our lives. We discussed the ideas of a JC and lots lots more. Again, you can read the new transcripts to capture all of this.
4. We took a break to have lunch. Thank you everyone for contributing those delicious treats, and thank you Dad (Harold Brown) for donating a pizza and some other items to our research group.
5. After lunch break Denise (who had to leave early) talked a bit about the powerfulness of dialog. Although she did not get a chance to go over a transcript, she had a lot of wonderful insight on what the research means for her and how it's impacted her life. Thank you Denise!
6. Then Carol went on to talk about the things in her section of the transcript. Unfortunately the notes I have here were taken by Carol, so she hasn't really left me much about what she said, but from what I can remember she mainly reinforced ideas that had already been brought forth. When I read the transcripts I know I'll kick myself for forgetting, but forgive me, it's been a lot to ingest today! Sorry Carol! <3
7. For the last hour or so we worked on a few things. First, we created a table of contents for our final report. Not in any specific order, we listed the things we'd like to include. Please, Roger, Deanne and Tracey, please feel free to offer suggestions for this!
Table of Contents (in no specific order)
- Introduction to US- Who are we?
- Overview of purpose and description of research.
- Our research process
- Changes we wanted, changes we actualized, and the personal impact it had on us.
- The 'next steps' section (into motion; future suggestions)
- Comparison between facilitator and participant interviews using the Wheel of Fortune.
- Narratives/ Personal Stories/ Quotes
- The speech from achievement night (more details to follow)
- Photos
- Our blogging experience (use sample blogs)
- Dissemination (how we release our findings)
- Helps and Hinders
8. Then we brainstormed the "Helpers" and "Hinders" that we encountered throughout our research.
Helpers:
- Flexibility of action research model (Morgan?)
- Diversity of our group
- Tim Turner and Tim Thorne
- Food (Ann)
- Financial support from MUN (Linda)
- Sense of connection (a reoccurring theme)
- Informality (fun, real, non-judgmental) (Morgan/Ann?)
- It was motivation
- Supports and relationships
- Passions
- Sense of responsibility (Linda)
- Feeling privileged to hear people's stories (Carol)
- Making a difference (Joey)
- Being together
- Seeing changes happen (Joey)
- Blog
- Attitude
- It's organic (Ann)
- Equality of everyone involved
- Quality of group
- Diversity and commonality
- A strong belief and longing for youth voice
- The action we take
- A lot of positive feedback from facilitators
Hinders:
- Time constraints (All)
- Personal/ Professional demands (Ann)
- Weather (Carol)
- Illness/ Health Issues
- Start time too late in the year (Morgan)
- Lack of interest from participants (Linda)
- Missed meetings
- Administrative red tape (Linda)
- Students not going to school (Joey)
- Passions
- Technological stuff (trouble with blog, god forbid!)
- Personal perceptions can limit things (Ann?)
- Policies
- Lack of respect for action research (because it's not quantitative people treat it as if it's not legitimate) (Ann)
- Fear of not being able to make a difference (Joey)
- Overwhelming (Linda)
- Inconsistent attendance
- Responsibility
I then looked at our long list of Hinders and I challenged the group to derive some positive for all these negatives. The group liked this idea, and we started brainstorming what kinds of things we learned and obstacles we've overcome despite our hinders. The list is as follows:
- (In regards to time) We did our best to be flexible with time.
- Blogging, Transcripts
- We did it even if we were afraid
- We worked around the constraints of policy
- We're more trusting as individuals
- We capitalized on the advantages of having fewer people
- MUN budget didn't allow food so we found our own (either made it ourself or found donations)
- We became more connected
- Our meetings were so rich and that outweighs the hinders
- We gained a passion for social justice in community and education
- We learned adaptability
- We were in a place where we were welcomed and accepted
9. We wrapped up, and took some pictures for a bulletin we want to create for the Murphy Centre directed at raising awareness of what we have accomplished. We decided we still need to meet as a team to go over details of the final report, and to discuss our plans for dissemination.
Hope this is helpful! Again, I cannot emphasize enough how important it is to read over the transcripts. I cannot even come close to capturing the richness of our day at the retreat and I hope everyone can make some time to look over it! If some of you who were at the retreat could fill in some of the missing pieces that would be great!
Praise Jesus!!!
6.6.08
In regards to education, thinking/acting/preaching outside the box is still considered radical. It still will never be the core of education, although it should be. A high school history course taught about peaceful resolutions to conflicts and honourable leaders of the past is considered "alternative". World History 3201 focuses on the wars of the world, and in order to achieve a passing grade you are forced to learn about these wars. I agree, they are important, but why aren't peaceful resolutions and those heroes from our history in the books we require to graduate? In English 3201 you study Shakespeare who, though I admire him, is not the best we could be studying. Although I am not overly familiar with names of authors and poets, I know there is better out there because I've read/seen/heard it. Novels are picked for us and we have to study and interpret them. There are so many fabulous pieces of literature out there and many diverse interests amongst people.
What it boils down to, is that education needs to be more individualized. It is so vital and life-giving that it needs to accommodate each and every individual. I agree with thinking "outside the box" and see myself as somewhat a radical. However, I have also learned and strongly believe that we should also be working "inside the box" with the resources we already have. Each individual within the regular system has the opportunity to do "radical" things. A history teacher could propose an alternative history course that does focus on the peaceful resolutions of our history. Perhaps maybe at first it could be offered as an alternative course, but over time if the Board of Education witnessed that these students were doing better in their alternative course than in the regular course, then they may consider changing things. As long as there is an openness to change (it's not like we're saying NO RULES or NO WORK) than I can't see why the "higher powers" wouldn't want us to be more successful. These are just examples, it's like this with anything. People can create change from within the system, there just has to be a will, a want and an openness.
What it boils down to, is that education needs to be more individualized. It is so vital and life-giving that it needs to accommodate each and every individual. I agree with thinking "outside the box" and see myself as somewhat a radical. However, I have also learned and strongly believe that we should also be working "inside the box" with the resources we already have. Each individual within the regular system has the opportunity to do "radical" things. A history teacher could propose an alternative history course that does focus on the peaceful resolutions of our history. Perhaps maybe at first it could be offered as an alternative course, but over time if the Board of Education witnessed that these students were doing better in their alternative course than in the regular course, then they may consider changing things. As long as there is an openness to change (it's not like we're saying NO RULES or NO WORK) than I can't see why the "higher powers" wouldn't want us to be more successful. These are just examples, it's like this with anything. People can create change from within the system, there just has to be a will, a want and an openness.
3.6.08
Discovery Days
Wow. What a day.
I had to cancel lunch with my Nanny (sorry Nan) because Ann McCann called me wondering if I would please go to a conference with her today. I said yes, as it had to do with research and funding and stuff, and when i went I had such a great time. I walked into a fancy conference room at the Ramada, had a nice lunch, and sat with a table of very wonderful people. Some were social workers, educators, and other professionals who were interested in the wellbeing of children and youth. Hosted by Kathy LeGrow (nee Pratt), it was a meeting to discuss an upcoming foundation that is to be established called the Pratt Foundation. Kathy and her family have decided to create this foundation to fund research directed towards children and families at risk in NL. It was so interesting and every single person had something different to bring to the table. Ann and I put forth our ideas from the perspective of an alternative learning facility, there was a lady there who worked in Foster Care, a woman who worked with children with extensive mental needs, a retired teacher, a lawyer, etc etc. Each person brought their experience and their knowledge to the table and it was all around really wonderful. There was another youth there that i knew from before and we actually saw each other at the mall after and talked more about our meeting. I have so many ideas and contributions to put forth but it's all so overwhelming. Education was a big topic of discussion as well as family violence and drugs/alcohol. All, of course, co-exist.
Then after this I had my first shift with my new job- selling home security systems. the other new guy and I were there with the boss and we were going door to door to try to sell security systems. I was skeptical at first but I figured I'd give it a shot and it would be a learning experience more than anything. When Zach (the other new guy) and I got to talking my suspicions came to light and we ended up discussing what a scum bag and scam artist our boss was, and decided it definitely wasn't for us. lol. Oh well I gave it a shot, and I might do it again, but I'm definitely not overly concerned about it. And, I made a great new friend (Zach) who I hope I'll get to see more of! He's gay, so hahahahah I feel more comfortable around him (I get along better with gay guys) and he's going for Med School so it's refreshing to meet someone who's interested in similar things that I am.
I start volunteering at Glenbrook Lodge on Sunday, assisting residence back and forth from morning mass. I am so excited. I can't wait to actually begin to do some good in the world. Not that working at the Cellar isn't a contribution to society, but I want to do something for the good of humanity. I can't wait !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thank you Ann for bringing me to the conference. I hope I can be more involved in what Kathy wishes to pursue..
Softball tomorrow morning with school! Should be a laugh and a half. Off tomorrow so I'll be studyingggg a lot. And then work Thursday, POTLUCK Friday and work Saturday. A pretty fulfilling week if I do say so!
I had to cancel lunch with my Nanny (sorry Nan) because Ann McCann called me wondering if I would please go to a conference with her today. I said yes, as it had to do with research and funding and stuff, and when i went I had such a great time. I walked into a fancy conference room at the Ramada, had a nice lunch, and sat with a table of very wonderful people. Some were social workers, educators, and other professionals who were interested in the wellbeing of children and youth. Hosted by Kathy LeGrow (nee Pratt), it was a meeting to discuss an upcoming foundation that is to be established called the Pratt Foundation. Kathy and her family have decided to create this foundation to fund research directed towards children and families at risk in NL. It was so interesting and every single person had something different to bring to the table. Ann and I put forth our ideas from the perspective of an alternative learning facility, there was a lady there who worked in Foster Care, a woman who worked with children with extensive mental needs, a retired teacher, a lawyer, etc etc. Each person brought their experience and their knowledge to the table and it was all around really wonderful. There was another youth there that i knew from before and we actually saw each other at the mall after and talked more about our meeting. I have so many ideas and contributions to put forth but it's all so overwhelming. Education was a big topic of discussion as well as family violence and drugs/alcohol. All, of course, co-exist.
Then after this I had my first shift with my new job- selling home security systems. the other new guy and I were there with the boss and we were going door to door to try to sell security systems. I was skeptical at first but I figured I'd give it a shot and it would be a learning experience more than anything. When Zach (the other new guy) and I got to talking my suspicions came to light and we ended up discussing what a scum bag and scam artist our boss was, and decided it definitely wasn't for us. lol. Oh well I gave it a shot, and I might do it again, but I'm definitely not overly concerned about it. And, I made a great new friend (Zach) who I hope I'll get to see more of! He's gay, so hahahahah I feel more comfortable around him (I get along better with gay guys) and he's going for Med School so it's refreshing to meet someone who's interested in similar things that I am.
I start volunteering at Glenbrook Lodge on Sunday, assisting residence back and forth from morning mass. I am so excited. I can't wait to actually begin to do some good in the world. Not that working at the Cellar isn't a contribution to society, but I want to do something for the good of humanity. I can't wait !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thank you Ann for bringing me to the conference. I hope I can be more involved in what Kathy wishes to pursue..
Softball tomorrow morning with school! Should be a laugh and a half. Off tomorrow so I'll be studyingggg a lot. And then work Thursday, POTLUCK Friday and work Saturday. A pretty fulfilling week if I do say so!
2.6.08
Organizing my time.
3 jobs.
It's going to be a busy summer.
My schedule for this week is jammed. I love being busy though, it keeps me going.
Tomorrow is school and studying to the max, and I have to take photos for a bulletin we're doing for our research group. I'm hoping that I can start my new job selling home security systems tomorrow. Not the most glamorous job but it brings in some money.
Tuesday I have school until 11 where I have to pick up the transcripts from Morgan to read over. Lunch with Nanny is my little escape after that, and then studying. Tuesday night I am supposed to go St. Phillips to do the workship with the elementary kids with CPAWS, so I hope I'm still doing that.
Wednesday is school again and alas more studying, and hopefully some more work with the new security system job. I think I'll have time on Wednesday to go over the transcripts as well.
Thursday is school and work at the Cellar.
Friday is my POTLUCK!! :) :) :)
Saturday is work at 2. Hopefully some hoolahooping beforehand is it's sunny.
And in between all of this I'll hopefully have some time to go up the East Coast Trail, do some volunteering at CPAWS, and hoolahoop!
I can't wait until the paychecks start coming in. It's going to be a big relief, being able to dedicate whole paychecks to bills and whatnot, and then having some to save! This is the beginning of the beginning. I am still collecting donations ;)
It's going to be a busy summer.
My schedule for this week is jammed. I love being busy though, it keeps me going.
Tomorrow is school and studying to the max, and I have to take photos for a bulletin we're doing for our research group. I'm hoping that I can start my new job selling home security systems tomorrow. Not the most glamorous job but it brings in some money.
Tuesday I have school until 11 where I have to pick up the transcripts from Morgan to read over. Lunch with Nanny is my little escape after that, and then studying. Tuesday night I am supposed to go St. Phillips to do the workship with the elementary kids with CPAWS, so I hope I'm still doing that.
Wednesday is school again and alas more studying, and hopefully some more work with the new security system job. I think I'll have time on Wednesday to go over the transcripts as well.
Thursday is school and work at the Cellar.
Friday is my POTLUCK!! :) :) :)
Saturday is work at 2. Hopefully some hoolahooping beforehand is it's sunny.
And in between all of this I'll hopefully have some time to go up the East Coast Trail, do some volunteering at CPAWS, and hoolahoop!
I can't wait until the paychecks start coming in. It's going to be a big relief, being able to dedicate whole paychecks to bills and whatnot, and then having some to save! This is the beginning of the beginning. I am still collecting donations ;)
25.5.08
Seal Hunt Essay
The seal hunt in Newfoundland Labrador is a highly debated topic amongst people all over the world. Traditionally, the seal hunt was a way for men in NL to make some cash. during the 19th and beginning of the 20th centuries while the seal hunt was flourishing, men of all ages eagerly awaited news that hey were assigned to a berth. The opportunity to make some money for themselves and prove their manhood made the seal hunt very appealing to men during this time. Since then the seal hunt has remained a cherished part of NL culture. In the last few decades debates have arisen, claiming the seal hunt is inhumane and unnecessary. However, I firmly believe that the seal hunt is productive and beneficial to the province, and should remain a major part of our NL heritage.
Each unique place in the world has it own unique traditions. Newfoundlanders and Labradorians view the seal hunt as a tradition. When it began it was a valuable resource and allowed poor fishermen to bring cash home to their families. It was highly anticipated and exciting to everyone. Even young boys tried to sign up about lying about their age! Despite harsh working conditions and hard labour, men looked forward to going out on the ice. The seal hunt has always been appreciated and respected by Newfoundlanders and Labradorians.
Seals are an ideal resource for NL because our agricultural industry suffers due to rocky land and cold weather. Sealing has always been beneficial for the NL economy. Seal oil capsules are sold in most pharmacies and are a good source of Omega-3 fatty acids. This is good for your brain, eyes and cardiovascular system. Having a balances amount of seal oil can prevent and assist with such mental and/or mood disorders such as ADHD, Bipolar Disorder, Dyslexia, and Schizophrenia. It can also be beneficial to people who suffer from rhumatoid arthritis, high cholesterol, and asthma (Seal Oil. http://www.sealoil.com). Another use for seals are the pelts. They are soft, warm and water-proof, and are sold in different forms at top dollar. I believe that an industry is great if it brings money to the province. Seal skin coats are an expensive luxury, but they bring lots of revenue to local businesses. Some may argue that it is wrong to wear seal skin coats. However, people have been wearing fur from animals since the beginning of time and will continue to do so forever. If someone thinks it is wrong they can avoid it themselves, but I don't believe it is wrong if people choose to wear the skin of animals that aren't endangered. Perhaps people are against it because seals have a cute and innocent appearance, but they are no different than the cows we slaughter for beef or the chickens we breed for our Sunday dinners. All animals are equal regardless of if one has a more appealing appearance.
Ironically, the controversy surrounding the seal hunt has in itself brought good things to Newfoundland Labrador. Media and publicity of this issue has turned many eyes toward NL. Whether people are for it or against it, the controvesy that has arisen because of the seal hunt has allowed NL to the pleasure of 1) Higher news ratings, and 2) More publicity. No publicity is bad publicity when you're a place that creeps in the shadows of Canada. Lets face it, there is a vast majority of people who don't even know what Newfoundland Labrador is, let alone be interested in it's political or economical world. The controversy surrounding the seal hunt has been beneficial in these ways!
The Atlantic seal hunt in Newfoundland Labrador is a beneficial industry for us to have. It's been a part of our heritage for hundreds of years and has provided income, food, and warmth to many Newfoundlanders and Labradorians for many years. Seals can provide things we need such as vitamins and clothing, and in turn creates a good market for local businesses. Regardless of the controversy that surrounds it, I believe that it brings far more good than bad. I hope that it continues for the years to come, and maybe one day I'll be able to afford a seal skin coat!
The seal hunt in Newfoundland Labrador is a highly debated topic amongst people all over the world. Traditionally, the seal hunt was a way for men in NL to make some cash. During the 19th and beginning of the 20th centuries while the seal hunt was flourishing, men of all ages eagerly awaited news that they were assigned to a berth. The opportunity to make some money for themselves and prove their manhood made the seal hunt very appealing to men during this time. Since then the seal hunt has remained a cherished part of NL culture. In the last few decades debates have arisen, claiming the seal hunt is inhumane and unnecessary. However, I firmly believe that the seal hunt is productive and beneficial to the province, and should remain a major part of our NL heritage.
Each unique place in the world has it own unique traditions. Newfoundlanders and Labradoreans view the seal hunt as a tradition. When it began it was a valuable resource and allowed poor fishermen to bring cash home to their families. It was highly anticipated and exciting to everyone. Even young boys tried to sign up about lying about their age! Despite harsh working conditions and hard labour, men looked forward to going out on the ice. The seal hunt has always been appreciated and respected by Newfoundlanders and Labradoreans.
Seals are an ideal resource for NL because our agricultural industry suffers due to rocky land and cold weather. Sealing has always been beneficial for the NL economy. Seal oil capsules are sold in most pharmacies and are a good source of Omega-3 fatty acids. This is good for your brain, eyes and cardiovascular system. Having a balanced amount of seal oil can prevent or assist with such mental and/or mood disorders such as ADHD, Bipolar Disorder, Dyslexia, and Schizophrenia. It can also be beneficial to people who suffer from rheumatoid arthritis, high cholesterol, and asthma (Seal Oil. http://www.sealoil.com). Another use for seals are the pelts. They are soft, warm and water-proof, and are sold in different forms at top dollar. I believe that an industry is great if it brings money to the province. Seal skin coats are an expensive luxury, but they bring lots of revenue to local businesses. Some may argue that it is wrong to wear seal skin coats. However, people have been wearing fur from animals since the beginning of time and will continue to do so forever. If someone thinks it is wrong they can avoid it themselves, but I don't believe it is wrong if people choose to wear the skin of animals that aren't endangered. Perhaps people are against it because seals have a cute and innocent appearance, but they are no different than the cows we slaughter for beef or the chickens we breed for our Sunday dinners. All animals are equal regardless of if one has a more appealing appearance.
Ironically, the controversy surrounding the seal hunt has in itself brought good things to Newfoundland Labrador. Media and publicity of this issue has turned many eyes toward NL. Whether people are for it or against it, the controversy that has arisen because of the seal hunt has allowed NL to the pleasure of 1) higher news ratings, and 2) more publicity. No publicity is bad publicity when you're a place that creeps in the shadows of Canada. Lets face it, there is a vast majority of people who don't even know what Newfoundland Labrador is, let alone be interested in it's political or economical world. The controversy surrounding the seal hunt has contributed to bringing light and a new audience into the media world of NL!
The Atlantic seal hunt in Newfoundland Labrador is a beneficial industry for us to have. It's been a part of our heritage for hundreds of years and has provided income, food, and warmth to many Newfoundlanders and Labradoreans for many years. Seals can provide things we need such as vitamins and clothing, and in turn creates a good market for local businesses. Regardless of the controversy that surrounds it, I believe that it brings far more good than bad. I hope that it continues for the years to come, and maybe one day I'll be able to afford a seal skin coat myself!
Bibliography:
Seal Oil. http://www.sealoil.com.
Each unique place in the world has it own unique traditions. Newfoundlanders and Labradorians view the seal hunt as a tradition. When it began it was a valuable resource and allowed poor fishermen to bring cash home to their families. It was highly anticipated and exciting to everyone. Even young boys tried to sign up about lying about their age! Despite harsh working conditions and hard labour, men looked forward to going out on the ice. The seal hunt has always been appreciated and respected by Newfoundlanders and Labradorians.
Seals are an ideal resource for NL because our agricultural industry suffers due to rocky land and cold weather. Sealing has always been beneficial for the NL economy. Seal oil capsules are sold in most pharmacies and are a good source of Omega-3 fatty acids. This is good for your brain, eyes and cardiovascular system. Having a balances amount of seal oil can prevent and assist with such mental and/or mood disorders such as ADHD, Bipolar Disorder, Dyslexia, and Schizophrenia. It can also be beneficial to people who suffer from rhumatoid arthritis, high cholesterol, and asthma (Seal Oil. http://www.sealoil.com). Another use for seals are the pelts. They are soft, warm and water-proof, and are sold in different forms at top dollar. I believe that an industry is great if it brings money to the province. Seal skin coats are an expensive luxury, but they bring lots of revenue to local businesses. Some may argue that it is wrong to wear seal skin coats. However, people have been wearing fur from animals since the beginning of time and will continue to do so forever. If someone thinks it is wrong they can avoid it themselves, but I don't believe it is wrong if people choose to wear the skin of animals that aren't endangered. Perhaps people are against it because seals have a cute and innocent appearance, but they are no different than the cows we slaughter for beef or the chickens we breed for our Sunday dinners. All animals are equal regardless of if one has a more appealing appearance.
Ironically, the controversy surrounding the seal hunt has in itself brought good things to Newfoundland Labrador. Media and publicity of this issue has turned many eyes toward NL. Whether people are for it or against it, the controvesy that has arisen because of the seal hunt has allowed NL to the pleasure of 1) Higher news ratings, and 2) More publicity. No publicity is bad publicity when you're a place that creeps in the shadows of Canada. Lets face it, there is a vast majority of people who don't even know what Newfoundland Labrador is, let alone be interested in it's political or economical world. The controversy surrounding the seal hunt has been beneficial in these ways!
The Atlantic seal hunt in Newfoundland Labrador is a beneficial industry for us to have. It's been a part of our heritage for hundreds of years and has provided income, food, and warmth to many Newfoundlanders and Labradorians for many years. Seals can provide things we need such as vitamins and clothing, and in turn creates a good market for local businesses. Regardless of the controversy that surrounds it, I believe that it brings far more good than bad. I hope that it continues for the years to come, and maybe one day I'll be able to afford a seal skin coat!
The seal hunt in Newfoundland Labrador is a highly debated topic amongst people all over the world. Traditionally, the seal hunt was a way for men in NL to make some cash. During the 19th and beginning of the 20th centuries while the seal hunt was flourishing, men of all ages eagerly awaited news that they were assigned to a berth. The opportunity to make some money for themselves and prove their manhood made the seal hunt very appealing to men during this time. Since then the seal hunt has remained a cherished part of NL culture. In the last few decades debates have arisen, claiming the seal hunt is inhumane and unnecessary. However, I firmly believe that the seal hunt is productive and beneficial to the province, and should remain a major part of our NL heritage.
Each unique place in the world has it own unique traditions. Newfoundlanders and Labradoreans view the seal hunt as a tradition. When it began it was a valuable resource and allowed poor fishermen to bring cash home to their families. It was highly anticipated and exciting to everyone. Even young boys tried to sign up about lying about their age! Despite harsh working conditions and hard labour, men looked forward to going out on the ice. The seal hunt has always been appreciated and respected by Newfoundlanders and Labradoreans.
Seals are an ideal resource for NL because our agricultural industry suffers due to rocky land and cold weather. Sealing has always been beneficial for the NL economy. Seal oil capsules are sold in most pharmacies and are a good source of Omega-3 fatty acids. This is good for your brain, eyes and cardiovascular system. Having a balanced amount of seal oil can prevent or assist with such mental and/or mood disorders such as ADHD, Bipolar Disorder, Dyslexia, and Schizophrenia. It can also be beneficial to people who suffer from rheumatoid arthritis, high cholesterol, and asthma (Seal Oil. http://www.sealoil.com). Another use for seals are the pelts. They are soft, warm and water-proof, and are sold in different forms at top dollar. I believe that an industry is great if it brings money to the province. Seal skin coats are an expensive luxury, but they bring lots of revenue to local businesses. Some may argue that it is wrong to wear seal skin coats. However, people have been wearing fur from animals since the beginning of time and will continue to do so forever. If someone thinks it is wrong they can avoid it themselves, but I don't believe it is wrong if people choose to wear the skin of animals that aren't endangered. Perhaps people are against it because seals have a cute and innocent appearance, but they are no different than the cows we slaughter for beef or the chickens we breed for our Sunday dinners. All animals are equal regardless of if one has a more appealing appearance.
Ironically, the controversy surrounding the seal hunt has in itself brought good things to Newfoundland Labrador. Media and publicity of this issue has turned many eyes toward NL. Whether people are for it or against it, the controversy that has arisen because of the seal hunt has allowed NL to the pleasure of 1) higher news ratings, and 2) more publicity. No publicity is bad publicity when you're a place that creeps in the shadows of Canada. Lets face it, there is a vast majority of people who don't even know what Newfoundland Labrador is, let alone be interested in it's political or economical world. The controversy surrounding the seal hunt has contributed to bringing light and a new audience into the media world of NL!
The Atlantic seal hunt in Newfoundland Labrador is a beneficial industry for us to have. It's been a part of our heritage for hundreds of years and has provided income, food, and warmth to many Newfoundlanders and Labradoreans for many years. Seals can provide things we need such as vitamins and clothing, and in turn creates a good market for local businesses. Regardless of the controversy that surrounds it, I believe that it brings far more good than bad. I hope that it continues for the years to come, and maybe one day I'll be able to afford a seal skin coat myself!
Bibliography:
Seal Oil. http://www.sealoil.com.
Wheel!
I repeated some if they fit into more than one category.
Social Environment
-some sort of funding for either materials or to pay staff-Trudy
-attendance.-Trudy, Bren, Jeff
-"The Murphy Center is the only place I've worked where I feel I can bring my whole self to work."-Trudy
-Exercise opportunites for young people and staff at least twice a week. -Ron-More attention to drug problems as in prevention of drugs on property and assistance with addictions. -Ron
Student-Teacher Relationship-a lot of staff members do not feel comfortable allowing students too much voice.-Trudy
-hearing more from students about their needs and issues. -Bren
-what is the amount of authority associated with that voice then there is some question about how much voice should be allowed.-Bren
-participant-staff meetings.-Trudy,Bren,Jeff
-being an open presence and helping to create a space where that is encouraged to blossom. -Ron
Peer Relationship
Learning Content
-some sort of funding for either materials or to pay staff-Trudy
-wider variety of courses offered-Trudy
-other courses within the high school program, more electives, and more alternative courses; 3 sciences, art, French, more English, socials-Trudy
-handing out worksheets and review questions to people pre-typed instead of giving notes so people will have all the material for every thing even if they are absent.
-closer relations to CONA; being able to audit a particular course. -Lloyd
-more tutoring!!! -Lloyd
Learning Process
-some sort of funding for either materials or to pay staff-Trudy
-more flexibility with which courses are available as independent courses-Trudy
-better attendance- Trudy, Bren, Jeff
-work with each individual on their levels; levels of learning, communication, interest.-Trudy
-new lab equipment- microscopes, computer software programs, etc.-Bren
-separate teachers for academic a.b.e and general a.b.e. -Lloyd
-people should be taking on more because they have more free time than normal high school students. -Lloyd
Assess Student Progress
-advisory process: when it comes to timing, and regularity, that advisers should get together on this.-Trudy
-if someone doesn`t want to be an adviser they don`t have to. - Trudy
-being more aware of a person's progress in their academics. -Bren
-a more organized advisory process. - Bren
-a general or even specific outline on what to do during the advisory meetings. -Bren
Mutual Accountability
-Attendance-Trudy, Bren, Jeff--->"if there were 90% of the people there 90% of the time"-Trudy
-Murphy Center should be more student-led, especially with big issues like ones we've faced this year: Drugs and violence.-Trudy
-these kinds of issues should be dealt with by students, or by a combination of staff and students.-Trudy
-student council; not in the tradition sense but in a more collaborative model.- Trudy
-need a better way to deal with dropping out, and we need to present it in such a way that it's not seen as a failure.-Trudy
-Addressing retention better.- Trudy
-talk to participants about their attendance.-Bren, Jeff
-discussion with individual people on why attendance is bad to deal with in individually. -Bren
-Greater accountability and follow through regarding absenteeism. -Ron
Community Relationships
-the idea of a new facility with a completely alternative curriculum.-Trudy, Jeff
-people with significant learning and cognitive difficulties would benefit from a new centre that had a completely alternative curriculum.
-being able to get a high school diploma in a modified school. -More open forum sessions to connect to Center philosophy. -Ron
Social Environment
-some sort of funding for either materials or to pay staff-Trudy
-attendance.-Trudy, Bren, Jeff
-"The Murphy Center is the only place I've worked where I feel I can bring my whole self to work."-Trudy
-Exercise opportunites for young people and staff at least twice a week. -Ron-More attention to drug problems as in prevention of drugs on property and assistance with addictions. -Ron
Student-Teacher Relationship-a lot of staff members do not feel comfortable allowing students too much voice.-Trudy
-hearing more from students about their needs and issues. -Bren
-what is the amount of authority associated with that voice then there is some question about how much voice should be allowed.-Bren
-participant-staff meetings.-Trudy,Bren,Jeff
-being an open presence and helping to create a space where that is encouraged to blossom. -Ron
Peer Relationship
Learning Content
-some sort of funding for either materials or to pay staff-Trudy
-wider variety of courses offered-Trudy
-other courses within the high school program, more electives, and more alternative courses; 3 sciences, art, French, more English, socials-Trudy
-handing out worksheets and review questions to people pre-typed instead of giving notes so people will have all the material for every thing even if they are absent.
-closer relations to CONA; being able to audit a particular course. -Lloyd
-more tutoring!!! -Lloyd
Learning Process
-some sort of funding for either materials or to pay staff-Trudy
-more flexibility with which courses are available as independent courses-Trudy
-better attendance- Trudy, Bren, Jeff
-work with each individual on their levels; levels of learning, communication, interest.-Trudy
-new lab equipment- microscopes, computer software programs, etc.-Bren
-separate teachers for academic a.b.e and general a.b.e. -Lloyd
-people should be taking on more because they have more free time than normal high school students. -Lloyd
Assess Student Progress
-advisory process: when it comes to timing, and regularity, that advisers should get together on this.-Trudy
-if someone doesn`t want to be an adviser they don`t have to. - Trudy
-being more aware of a person's progress in their academics. -Bren
-a more organized advisory process. - Bren
-a general or even specific outline on what to do during the advisory meetings. -Bren
Mutual Accountability
-Attendance-Trudy, Bren, Jeff--->"if there were 90% of the people there 90% of the time"-Trudy
-Murphy Center should be more student-led, especially with big issues like ones we've faced this year: Drugs and violence.-Trudy
-these kinds of issues should be dealt with by students, or by a combination of staff and students.-Trudy
-student council; not in the tradition sense but in a more collaborative model.- Trudy
-need a better way to deal with dropping out, and we need to present it in such a way that it's not seen as a failure.-Trudy
-Addressing retention better.- Trudy
-talk to participants about their attendance.-Bren, Jeff
-discussion with individual people on why attendance is bad to deal with in individually. -Bren
-Greater accountability and follow through regarding absenteeism. -Ron
Community Relationships
-the idea of a new facility with a completely alternative curriculum.-Trudy, Jeff
-people with significant learning and cognitive difficulties would benefit from a new centre that had a completely alternative curriculum.
-being able to get a high school diploma in a modified school. -More open forum sessions to connect to Center philosophy. -Ron
Sunny Sunday
I finally got the opportunity to meet with Morgan and it went better than I could've imagined. I am officially hired as an off campus researcher for MUN. We're going to be focusing on Youth Advocacy and Youth Voice, and I am so excited to see what the future holds. I also started volunteering with the Canadian Parks and Wilderness Society and St. Patrick's Nursing Home, so it's going to be a busy summer! I am looking forward to it, though, because I am going to be learning a lot about myself. I am going to be involved in a diverse list of activities in hopes of finding out a lot about what i want, what I want do to, and who I want to be. I am going to be learning new skills this summer and I am soooo freaking excited i could scream. Things are good, and even when they're bad, they're still good!
I have a new little cousin named Harold William Brown, and he is so adorable. He's the seventh child of my Uncle Keith and Aunt Teresa's and they named him after Papa and Dad. I hope I get to see the new little one plus all the others really soon!
I am in the process of putting my 'facilitator ideas' on the Wheel that we have, so that's been taking me a bit of time. I found a really cool website totally dedicated to Youth Voice and Yotuh Advocacy so I will be trying to make the time to check all that out! THe website is: www.freechild.org
Working at The Cellar a lot now, and public exams are coming up so I'll be super busy with that but hopefully once school is over I can focus on my research!!! :) :) :) :)
Love is in the Air!!!
I have a new little cousin named Harold William Brown, and he is so adorable. He's the seventh child of my Uncle Keith and Aunt Teresa's and they named him after Papa and Dad. I hope I get to see the new little one plus all the others really soon!
I am in the process of putting my 'facilitator ideas' on the Wheel that we have, so that's been taking me a bit of time. I found a really cool website totally dedicated to Youth Voice and Yotuh Advocacy so I will be trying to make the time to check all that out! THe website is: www.freechild.org
Working at The Cellar a lot now, and public exams are coming up so I'll be super busy with that but hopefully once school is over I can focus on my research!!! :) :) :) :)
Love is in the Air!!!
22.5.08
essay ideas
"Benefits of technology outweigh far outweigh the drawbacks". Being a frequent user and lover of technology, I'd like to tell you I agree with that statement. However, I cannot help prefer the notion that we would be better suited without technology. Obviously, you have to accept the goods with the bads: without technology we would lack good health care. But what if we lived into a world without technology? Would children still be expected to begin work at a young age to help support their families? Would people still be expected to do mathematical equations on paper? Would families stay closer together? Would the world be a better place? Such questions as these have to be considered when weighing your opinion on technology, and for me these issues are enough to make me realize that the benefits of technology do not outweigh the drawbacks.
One example of why I firmly believe technology is ruining our society is evident in our children. There once was a time where kids were expected to go outside and play. Now majority of kids own a gaming system. I can't even count the number of kids I know that get off school, go home and get right into the video games. My two little brothers are teenagers now, and they grew up on video games. If children (and teenagers) took the time they spent on video games and put it towards something healthy such as a part-time job, a sport, art, music, volunteering, or school work there would be so must more productivity in their daily life. A healthy brain and body relies on healthy sensory input, and healthy experiences which allow you to grow as a person. If you only play video games on your spare time you're missing out on a lot of other things in life. This sounds drastic, but it's true! There are people out there that play video games for a good portion of their waking hours. Because video games have advanced so much in the last 12 years, they are realistic and memorizing. People become consumed in the stories and the goals. Not only have they become more realistic, but they have become more explicit and hardcore. There are warning labels on the Grand Theft Auto IV game that is out recently, and I would assume it's supposed to be for 18 year olds. However, I know my 16-year-old and 14-year-old brother both play this game. There are vivid and explicit references to drugs, prostitutes, sex, and other adult themes that I really wouldn't want any young person to be exposed to. The technology of video games are my number one enemy, and are a good example of the drawbacks of technology.
Technology is also affecting the intelligence of people. Although people have easy access to all sorts of wonderful information, web sites, books, art, etc. , by grade ten you are using a calculator in mathematics.
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to be continued...
One example of why I firmly believe technology is ruining our society is evident in our children. There once was a time where kids were expected to go outside and play. Now majority of kids own a gaming system. I can't even count the number of kids I know that get off school, go home and get right into the video games. My two little brothers are teenagers now, and they grew up on video games. If children (and teenagers) took the time they spent on video games and put it towards something healthy such as a part-time job, a sport, art, music, volunteering, or school work there would be so must more productivity in their daily life. A healthy brain and body relies on healthy sensory input, and healthy experiences which allow you to grow as a person. If you only play video games on your spare time you're missing out on a lot of other things in life. This sounds drastic, but it's true! There are people out there that play video games for a good portion of their waking hours. Because video games have advanced so much in the last 12 years, they are realistic and memorizing. People become consumed in the stories and the goals. Not only have they become more realistic, but they have become more explicit and hardcore. There are warning labels on the Grand Theft Auto IV game that is out recently, and I would assume it's supposed to be for 18 year olds. However, I know my 16-year-old and 14-year-old brother both play this game. There are vivid and explicit references to drugs, prostitutes, sex, and other adult themes that I really wouldn't want any young person to be exposed to. The technology of video games are my number one enemy, and are a good example of the drawbacks of technology.
Technology is also affecting the intelligence of people. Although people have easy access to all sorts of wonderful information, web sites, books, art, etc. , by grade ten you are using a calculator in mathematics.
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to be continued...
18.5.08
Updating
I've been checking out volunteer opportunities on different websites and stuff. I really want to dedicate some time and effort to the community. I got a reply from The Love of Learning program they offer at Gower Street United Church. They have a teen art program that they need volunteers for, right in my ballpark! (and neighborhood). My life has been very stressful lately. I want to find a job that I enjoy and that allows me to contribute to a higher goal, instead of just catering to the wants of upper class, unappreciative people. I have culinary skills (and good ones at that) but I have so much more potential to make this world a little better, and I feel like I'm wasting time. The Cellar has taught me good organization skills, how to work with others, great work ethic, responsibility, and lots and lots of other things, but I think I've reaped from it what I can, and I need to move on. When I mention this to my Dad, however, he disagrees. I've decided to just go ahead and do things, and let him know when the time comes, instead of trying to run it by him beforehand. He's just going to have to suck it up like a big boy.
Does anyone have any creative ideas for making money? I want to utilize this summer to save as much as I possibly can, so when the fall semester comes around I can be less stressed.
I wonder if I have to take a full-course load to qualify for a (good) student loan/grant.
Hmmm??? *ponders*
Does anyone have any creative ideas for making money? I want to utilize this summer to save as much as I possibly can, so when the fall semester comes around I can be less stressed.
I wonder if I have to take a full-course load to qualify for a (good) student loan/grant.
Hmmm??? *ponders*
9.5.08
I'm trying to put my feelings into words...
giving a group of troubled people a good feeling, an opportunity, a reason to get up, a drive, a motive...... a voice..
and then just dropping it for a few weeks. if you're going to take on this responsibility you should be consistent because people like us-can do really great and wonderful things- but while it's so fresh and so new to us, so foreign, we need consistency
It's a longer fall from the top type thing
and then just dropping it for a few weeks. if you're going to take on this responsibility you should be consistent because people like us-can do really great and wonderful things- but while it's so fresh and so new to us, so foreign, we need consistency
It's a longer fall from the top type thing
An MSN conversation that got me thinkin....
Between me and my wonderful teacher/adviser/friend Trudy.
Linda needs a vacation. said:
I'm almost 20 years old and I haven't had a childhood. I've partied, had fun, but I've never had no responsibilities. I'm so sick of responsibility i could puke.
Trudy & Jason said:
What would your ideal no-responsibility life look like right now, if you could have it?
Linda needs a vacation. said:
Living with Mommy. No school. No bills. No debts. No man. Just me and my mommy and our kitties and the backyard. and paints and beads and crayons... and music that i like. and not feeling like i'm annoying when i want to be immature.
Trudy & Jason says:
That does sound like a vacation. By which I mean, I can't imagine you wanting to live like that indefinitely (though some people do) but I can see how it would be a nice break for awhile.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
uh huh
Linda needs a vacation. says:
and there's no drive pushing me to go to school right now. i hate the book we're reading. I don't want to sit in biology along. I hate the busride, and there's been no freaking word from my research team.. the research was really keeping me going but now it's like it's gone i dunno
Trudy & Jason says:
Well, you have 40 days till exams are over and you can put it all behind you forever. Why not focus on the most efficient way to get through those 40 days and plan how you can enjoy at least some elements of an irresponsible vacation once it's over?
Linda needs a vacation. says:
well i have been studying for exams and doing my questions and stuff. I'm not falling behind in my school work. I will do great on exams. But this summer, ughhhh, I have to work 2 full-time jobs this summer in order to pay off my debts and save a little bit before i go to mun
Linda needs a vacation. says:
mun is my sorrows demise
Linda needs a vacation. says:
or maybe TIME is
Linda needs a vacation. says:
i dont have enough time to do all this before mun starts
Trudy & Jason says:
I can see why that would make you feel pressured. How would you feel if you didn't start MUN in September? Would it give you more of a break to wait a semester, or would you feel like you were getting behind?
Trudy & Jason says:
By the way (tangent because I'm clearing papers off my desk) did I give you your mark on the research essay?
Linda needs a vacation. says:
I would love to wait a semester and work my ass off to have some money so i could live comfortabley and debt free. but the pressure is on now to start mun in september. my family is pressuring me.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
no
Linda needs a vacation. says:
oh yes
Trudy & Jason says:
88
Linda needs a vacation. says:
88 or something
Linda needs a vacation. says:
ya
Trudy & Jason says:
It's too bad your family is pressuring you, although I guess if it were one of my kids I'd be saying "Yeah you should start MUN as soon as possible" ... but you have to do what's best for you.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
I know...
Linda needs a vacation. says:
I would LOVE to start in January
Trudy & Jason says:
I know what you mean about responsibility -- surprise! it doesn't get better as you get older -- the other day I was whining about how EVERY SINGLE MINUTE of my life I'm responsible for someone else, either work or family...
Linda needs a vacation. says:
yeah i know. but did you have a good childhood?
Linda needs a vacation. says:
i know my life is going to be filled with responsibilities, but it feels like i've missed out.
Trudy & Jason says:
...and while I love both those things and don't want to lose either, I think the idea of a "vacation," a temporary break, can keep you going sometimes, which is why I think you need to structure your time so you can give yourself a little break to look forward to.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
yeah
Trudy & Jason says:
Yes, I can see how you're feeling a sense of loss over some "carefree" time that you missed out on as a child.
Trudy & Jason says:
You can't recreate what you lost (and remember that with great power comes great responsibility, according to Spiderman's uncle, so if you give up responsibilities you lose power, which I doubt you'd like long term) ... but you can compensate for it.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
I want to go to MUN in January so bad. I've thought about this before you mentioned it, don't worry. You haven't gone and put crazy ideas in my head.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
I need compensation for a lot of things hahahaha
Trudy & Jason says:
But nobody will compensate you -- you have to figure out for yourself how to get what you need.
Trudy & Jason says:
Personally, the hope of a weekend in Eastport with my girlfriends this summer is what's keeping me going at the moment!
Linda needs a vacation. says:
unfortunately, i need money. i need to be debt free because im going to have enough stress to deal with without debts.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
I can't vacation because that costs money. I have to save money, and pay rent and bills in the process.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
it's near impossible.
Trudy & Jason says:
That is difficult. But I doubt it's unsolvable for someone with your skills.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
School in January.... do you know the pros and cons?
Trudy & Jason says:
Pros and cons from what perspective?
Trudy & Jason says:
I don't think it makes much difference in terms of classes; all the first year classes would be offered in January just the same as in Sept.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
i would be a semester behind? but i would be ahead financially
Trudy & Jason says:
I'm not sure how much the concept of being a semester "behind" means in university -- might depend on what program you're going into. It would be worth a conversation with Kim, I think, since she'd have more specific info on how it might affect you.
Trudy & Jason says:
Being ahead financially and less stressed would improve your chances of success, I would think.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
me too.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
do you mind if i copy-paste this conversation into my blog?
Trudy & Jason says:
Sure, that's fine.
Trudy & Jason says:
(scrolling back to see if i said anything i don't want saved ...)
Trudy & Jason says:
no it's ok
Linda needs a vacation. says:
ok
Linda needs a vacation. says:
i do think i'd do way better in my first year at mun if i waws financially prepared
Linda needs a vacation. says:
and up to december at work its always busy so i could make lots of monney
Trudy & Jason says:
And the drawback is that your parents don't like this idea?
Linda needs a vacation. says:
my parents, my grandma, my aunts,
Trudy & Jason says:
Why do they think it's important for you to go in September? What's their reasoning?
Trudy & Jason says:
Looks like I have absolutely NOBODY here for history class...
Trudy & Jason says:
Only had Dempsey for English and we played Essay Boot Camp again...
Linda needs a vacation. says:
well dad says he doesn't want me to "fall out of learning".. ya know, whhen you dont go to school for awhile it can be harder...
gramma is shocked that i am still in high school, she's always at me.. i think mom and nanny would understand if i explained it to them, but then again people have been telling me to do it regardless of the financial burdens but i dont think they realize the capacity of my financial stress right now.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
oh yes, essay boot camp is good
Trudy & Jason says:
Yeah, it worked on Joey yesterday too ...
Trudy & Jason says:
I think parents have a real fear that if their kids don't head to university right after high school they will never go. I may be the same way when my kids are finishing high school, but from my experience now it seems far more likely that going to university when you're not ready ...
Trudy & Jason says:
(whether financially, or emotionally, or just don't know what you want to do with your education) is much more likely to lead to failure or dropout.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
i know.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
i wish my dad would understand this.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
and my gramma
Trudy & Jason says:
I'd rather see my kids take a year off to work or travel or volunteer or whatever and then go when they know what they're doing ... I say that NOW ...
Linda needs a vacation. says:
I'd like just to take a semester off to fix this money mess i've gotten myself into, and to save up so i can still live comfortably
Linda needs a vacation. says:
and if i dont start mun in September i dunno if Morgan can hire me
Linda needs a vacation. says:
but i haven't heard from her in weeks so I'm feeling kind of abandoned
Trudy & Jason says:
Wasn't Morgan away for awhile? I think she's back now though because she was here yesterday.
Trudy & Jason says:
It would be interesting to hear Morgan's thoughts on going to MUN in January rather than September too -- from a more "university" perspective -- as well as how that would affect her hiring you.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
she was there yesterday????/
Linda needs a vacation. says:
I wonder if it was for a meeting or not.
Trudy & Jason says:
Not for the research group though ... meeting with Anne and someone else from outside about something.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
oh ok
Linda needs a vacation. says:
ya she was away, but i've emailed her and blogged and asked ann a bajillion times
Trudy & Jason says:
I think there is supposed to be something going on next week (Tuesday?) about the lounge painting project though, speaking of things you wouldn't want to miss.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
Oh really, ok thanks for letting me know.
Trudy & Jason says:
That's if the person Ann is bringing in can make it ... I was just talking to her about it and she said Tuesday.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
oh ok
Linda needs a vacation. says:
cool
Linda needs a vacation. says:
I don't think Morgan and Ann know the seriousness of contacting people in the group
Trudy & Jason says:
How do you mean?
Linda needs a vacation. says:
for them, when the group isn't on the go they have other things to deal with, other obligations, but for people like me who sit at home and check blogger every 20 minutes to see if there's any updates, i mean, if they don't contact me or fall behind it really effects me because this research group is the most significant thing in my life right now.. ya know what i mean?
Linda needs a vacation. says:
I've been logging hours and doing work because Morgan told me to (log the hours), and i haven't heard from her since. none of my stuff has been even looked at.
Trudy & Jason says:
Yes, but I think you need to let THEM know that ... I don't think they realize how important it is to you right now. Because, as you said, they do have a lot else going on.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
Well I mean, when you start something as radical as this, when you tell a group of youth that they CAN make a difference and everything is going well and there's a steady flow to things, when people look forward to going and use it as a reason to get up in the morning, well then if it diminishes so does my feeling of self worth.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
they should be aware of this when dealing with youth, it's new and exciting to us, and fragile.
Trudy & Jason says:
Maybe they overestimate your resilience. But it sounds like a perfect opportunity to be your own advocate.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
meh
Linda needs a vacation. says:
I don't understand
I'm so utterly confused and stressed out. I want to start school in January. I've been schooling for 2 years FLAT OUT now and I need a break! I need money. MOney money money.
*sighhh*
Linda needs a vacation. said:
I'm almost 20 years old and I haven't had a childhood. I've partied, had fun, but I've never had no responsibilities. I'm so sick of responsibility i could puke.
Trudy & Jason said:
What would your ideal no-responsibility life look like right now, if you could have it?
Linda needs a vacation. said:
Living with Mommy. No school. No bills. No debts. No man. Just me and my mommy and our kitties and the backyard. and paints and beads and crayons... and music that i like. and not feeling like i'm annoying when i want to be immature.
Trudy & Jason says:
That does sound like a vacation. By which I mean, I can't imagine you wanting to live like that indefinitely (though some people do) but I can see how it would be a nice break for awhile.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
uh huh
Linda needs a vacation. says:
and there's no drive pushing me to go to school right now. i hate the book we're reading. I don't want to sit in biology along. I hate the busride, and there's been no freaking word from my research team.. the research was really keeping me going but now it's like it's gone i dunno
Trudy & Jason says:
Well, you have 40 days till exams are over and you can put it all behind you forever. Why not focus on the most efficient way to get through those 40 days and plan how you can enjoy at least some elements of an irresponsible vacation once it's over?
Linda needs a vacation. says:
well i have been studying for exams and doing my questions and stuff. I'm not falling behind in my school work. I will do great on exams. But this summer, ughhhh, I have to work 2 full-time jobs this summer in order to pay off my debts and save a little bit before i go to mun
Linda needs a vacation. says:
mun is my sorrows demise
Linda needs a vacation. says:
or maybe TIME is
Linda needs a vacation. says:
i dont have enough time to do all this before mun starts
Trudy & Jason says:
I can see why that would make you feel pressured. How would you feel if you didn't start MUN in September? Would it give you more of a break to wait a semester, or would you feel like you were getting behind?
Trudy & Jason says:
By the way (tangent because I'm clearing papers off my desk) did I give you your mark on the research essay?
Linda needs a vacation. says:
I would love to wait a semester and work my ass off to have some money so i could live comfortabley and debt free. but the pressure is on now to start mun in september. my family is pressuring me.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
no
Linda needs a vacation. says:
oh yes
Trudy & Jason says:
88
Linda needs a vacation. says:
88 or something
Linda needs a vacation. says:
ya
Trudy & Jason says:
It's too bad your family is pressuring you, although I guess if it were one of my kids I'd be saying "Yeah you should start MUN as soon as possible" ... but you have to do what's best for you.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
I know...
Linda needs a vacation. says:
I would LOVE to start in January
Trudy & Jason says:
I know what you mean about responsibility -- surprise! it doesn't get better as you get older -- the other day I was whining about how EVERY SINGLE MINUTE of my life I'm responsible for someone else, either work or family...
Linda needs a vacation. says:
yeah i know. but did you have a good childhood?
Linda needs a vacation. says:
i know my life is going to be filled with responsibilities, but it feels like i've missed out.
Trudy & Jason says:
...and while I love both those things and don't want to lose either, I think the idea of a "vacation," a temporary break, can keep you going sometimes, which is why I think you need to structure your time so you can give yourself a little break to look forward to.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
yeah
Trudy & Jason says:
Yes, I can see how you're feeling a sense of loss over some "carefree" time that you missed out on as a child.
Trudy & Jason says:
You can't recreate what you lost (and remember that with great power comes great responsibility, according to Spiderman's uncle, so if you give up responsibilities you lose power, which I doubt you'd like long term) ... but you can compensate for it.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
I want to go to MUN in January so bad. I've thought about this before you mentioned it, don't worry. You haven't gone and put crazy ideas in my head.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
I need compensation for a lot of things hahahaha
Trudy & Jason says:
But nobody will compensate you -- you have to figure out for yourself how to get what you need.
Trudy & Jason says:
Personally, the hope of a weekend in Eastport with my girlfriends this summer is what's keeping me going at the moment!
Linda needs a vacation. says:
unfortunately, i need money. i need to be debt free because im going to have enough stress to deal with without debts.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
I can't vacation because that costs money. I have to save money, and pay rent and bills in the process.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
it's near impossible.
Trudy & Jason says:
That is difficult. But I doubt it's unsolvable for someone with your skills.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
School in January.... do you know the pros and cons?
Trudy & Jason says:
Pros and cons from what perspective?
Trudy & Jason says:
I don't think it makes much difference in terms of classes; all the first year classes would be offered in January just the same as in Sept.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
i would be a semester behind? but i would be ahead financially
Trudy & Jason says:
I'm not sure how much the concept of being a semester "behind" means in university -- might depend on what program you're going into. It would be worth a conversation with Kim, I think, since she'd have more specific info on how it might affect you.
Trudy & Jason says:
Being ahead financially and less stressed would improve your chances of success, I would think.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
me too.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
do you mind if i copy-paste this conversation into my blog?
Trudy & Jason says:
Sure, that's fine.
Trudy & Jason says:
(scrolling back to see if i said anything i don't want saved ...)
Trudy & Jason says:
no it's ok
Linda needs a vacation. says:
ok
Linda needs a vacation. says:
i do think i'd do way better in my first year at mun if i waws financially prepared
Linda needs a vacation. says:
and up to december at work its always busy so i could make lots of monney
Trudy & Jason says:
And the drawback is that your parents don't like this idea?
Linda needs a vacation. says:
my parents, my grandma, my aunts,
Trudy & Jason says:
Why do they think it's important for you to go in September? What's their reasoning?
Trudy & Jason says:
Looks like I have absolutely NOBODY here for history class...
Trudy & Jason says:
Only had Dempsey for English and we played Essay Boot Camp again...
Linda needs a vacation. says:
well dad says he doesn't want me to "fall out of learning".. ya know, whhen you dont go to school for awhile it can be harder...
gramma is shocked that i am still in high school, she's always at me.. i think mom and nanny would understand if i explained it to them, but then again people have been telling me to do it regardless of the financial burdens but i dont think they realize the capacity of my financial stress right now.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
oh yes, essay boot camp is good
Trudy & Jason says:
Yeah, it worked on Joey yesterday too ...
Trudy & Jason says:
I think parents have a real fear that if their kids don't head to university right after high school they will never go. I may be the same way when my kids are finishing high school, but from my experience now it seems far more likely that going to university when you're not ready ...
Trudy & Jason says:
(whether financially, or emotionally, or just don't know what you want to do with your education) is much more likely to lead to failure or dropout.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
i know.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
i wish my dad would understand this.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
and my gramma
Trudy & Jason says:
I'd rather see my kids take a year off to work or travel or volunteer or whatever and then go when they know what they're doing ... I say that NOW ...
Linda needs a vacation. says:
I'd like just to take a semester off to fix this money mess i've gotten myself into, and to save up so i can still live comfortably
Linda needs a vacation. says:
and if i dont start mun in September i dunno if Morgan can hire me
Linda needs a vacation. says:
but i haven't heard from her in weeks so I'm feeling kind of abandoned
Trudy & Jason says:
Wasn't Morgan away for awhile? I think she's back now though because she was here yesterday.
Trudy & Jason says:
It would be interesting to hear Morgan's thoughts on going to MUN in January rather than September too -- from a more "university" perspective -- as well as how that would affect her hiring you.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
she was there yesterday????/
Linda needs a vacation. says:
I wonder if it was for a meeting or not.
Trudy & Jason says:
Not for the research group though ... meeting with Anne and someone else from outside about something.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
oh ok
Linda needs a vacation. says:
ya she was away, but i've emailed her and blogged and asked ann a bajillion times
Trudy & Jason says:
I think there is supposed to be something going on next week (Tuesday?) about the lounge painting project though, speaking of things you wouldn't want to miss.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
Oh really, ok thanks for letting me know.
Trudy & Jason says:
That's if the person Ann is bringing in can make it ... I was just talking to her about it and she said Tuesday.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
oh ok
Linda needs a vacation. says:
cool
Linda needs a vacation. says:
I don't think Morgan and Ann know the seriousness of contacting people in the group
Trudy & Jason says:
How do you mean?
Linda needs a vacation. says:
for them, when the group isn't on the go they have other things to deal with, other obligations, but for people like me who sit at home and check blogger every 20 minutes to see if there's any updates, i mean, if they don't contact me or fall behind it really effects me because this research group is the most significant thing in my life right now.. ya know what i mean?
Linda needs a vacation. says:
I've been logging hours and doing work because Morgan told me to (log the hours), and i haven't heard from her since. none of my stuff has been even looked at.
Trudy & Jason says:
Yes, but I think you need to let THEM know that ... I don't think they realize how important it is to you right now. Because, as you said, they do have a lot else going on.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
Well I mean, when you start something as radical as this, when you tell a group of youth that they CAN make a difference and everything is going well and there's a steady flow to things, when people look forward to going and use it as a reason to get up in the morning, well then if it diminishes so does my feeling of self worth.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
they should be aware of this when dealing with youth, it's new and exciting to us, and fragile.
Trudy & Jason says:
Maybe they overestimate your resilience. But it sounds like a perfect opportunity to be your own advocate.
Linda needs a vacation. says:
meh
Linda needs a vacation. says:
I don't understand
I'm so utterly confused and stressed out. I want to start school in January. I've been schooling for 2 years FLAT OUT now and I need a break! I need money. MOney money money.
*sighhh*
7.5.08
Interview with Joey
4;00-4:30
What Joey says about the last meeting:
"I was sitting there, Deanne was on my left and Ann was two my right at the head of table. Ann was lovin' it. We started talking about the ideas that were up on the board, and we talked about what we could add to what was already there. There were ideas of the board of things that could help make the changes we want. I suggested a music program or something to do with music."
Linda:What does youth advocacy mean to you?
Joey:It's wicked, we need it. Children, teenager mainly, and children, everyone should get a say in what they want to do because everyone is different and everyone is interested in different things, so we have to have a say in what we do. We know what we like, and yes we know what we have to and sometimes we don't wanna do it, but that's why we have adults there man.
Linda:So you believe in enforcement?
Joey:No I believe we should have a say in what we do but we can't go crazy with it, we have to have some certain amount of.... like parents know best for their children obviously. Honestly, our parents do kind of own us, because we do come from them.
Linda:What would be the major change that you would like to see next?
Joey:The changes we are going to work on as a group.. Well there's so many things I can think about because we can try to start working with with the actual youth. We have to get that lounge done. I am excited to help out with it and I have good ideas! At one of the meetings we talked about the lounge and there was a lot of different people there (an open meeting) and people were giving ideas about the lounge and it was really good because we got a lot of ideas done. We chose virtues and I was going through and picking good meanings that apply to us, and Roger was going through taking some out too. An idea suggested was to put the words somewhere like on the floor or ceiling or stain glass. I suggested stain glass words that would shine into the lounge. Another idea was taking the ceiling boards and different groups can decorate it. And then Carol suggested to have a tree (an artificial one) in the lounge! Good stuff. Good ideas. We're going to put murals up, I think.
Linda:How do you make your everyday curriculum and lifestyle in school as alternative as possible?
Joey:I do usually post-pone tests in biology, and I find that the teachers are a lot more easy going; they actually respect you and they understand that you are there because you couldn't deal with high school. You couldn't just, talk, throughout high school. I talked a lot in high school. I consider the amount of respect I get from the Murphy Centre as alternative to high school.
Linda:If you had done something differently in high school, what would it have been?
Joey:I would've been more involved with high school. I look back and I regret not being a part of the community. I was involved in the musical and choir but I could've easily been someone to stay on Student Council, and I regret not doing as good as I could have. I do understand why i didn't do good and it was because I simply didn't want to- I didn't want to do anything. I just went to school and I was social, barely did a thing. Although i find when I have something important going on in life i tend to do better in school. Like when I was in the musical, I kept all my grades up.
Linda:What's a challenge you feel at the M.C right now?
Joey:A challenge? A challenge to stay on course. I was doing a lot better in the beginning than I'm doing now. I'm still doing good in biology and English, but I have a low mark in math. I don't think the school could help me, it's just me.
Linda:What are you passionate about?
Joey:You know what I'm passionate about? Fund raising. I think that we need to start fund raising because we do have a bit of money there but we are going to need more if we want to make as many changes as we can within this school, and then maybe someday into the community. so when you look at it it's going to take a lot of money. This is really going to go somewhere and we need to have the funds to back it up. We could have car washes, or a show, or even for the older students a pub crawl. It is important because if we want little things done (lounge, etc) we're going to need money. So why not start the fund raising?
Linda:Would you be interested in the idea of a talent show?
Joey:*BIG SMILES*
Our meeting has to be cut short because I have to go to work. Cya everyone!
What Joey says about the last meeting:
"I was sitting there, Deanne was on my left and Ann was two my right at the head of table. Ann was lovin' it. We started talking about the ideas that were up on the board, and we talked about what we could add to what was already there. There were ideas of the board of things that could help make the changes we want. I suggested a music program or something to do with music."
Linda:What does youth advocacy mean to you?
Joey:It's wicked, we need it. Children, teenager mainly, and children, everyone should get a say in what they want to do because everyone is different and everyone is interested in different things, so we have to have a say in what we do. We know what we like, and yes we know what we have to and sometimes we don't wanna do it, but that's why we have adults there man.
Linda:So you believe in enforcement?
Joey:No I believe we should have a say in what we do but we can't go crazy with it, we have to have some certain amount of.... like parents know best for their children obviously. Honestly, our parents do kind of own us, because we do come from them.
Linda:What would be the major change that you would like to see next?
Joey:The changes we are going to work on as a group.. Well there's so many things I can think about because we can try to start working with with the actual youth. We have to get that lounge done. I am excited to help out with it and I have good ideas! At one of the meetings we talked about the lounge and there was a lot of different people there (an open meeting) and people were giving ideas about the lounge and it was really good because we got a lot of ideas done. We chose virtues and I was going through and picking good meanings that apply to us, and Roger was going through taking some out too. An idea suggested was to put the words somewhere like on the floor or ceiling or stain glass. I suggested stain glass words that would shine into the lounge. Another idea was taking the ceiling boards and different groups can decorate it. And then Carol suggested to have a tree (an artificial one) in the lounge! Good stuff. Good ideas. We're going to put murals up, I think.
Linda:How do you make your everyday curriculum and lifestyle in school as alternative as possible?
Joey:I do usually post-pone tests in biology, and I find that the teachers are a lot more easy going; they actually respect you and they understand that you are there because you couldn't deal with high school. You couldn't just, talk, throughout high school. I talked a lot in high school. I consider the amount of respect I get from the Murphy Centre as alternative to high school.
Linda:If you had done something differently in high school, what would it have been?
Joey:I would've been more involved with high school. I look back and I regret not being a part of the community. I was involved in the musical and choir but I could've easily been someone to stay on Student Council, and I regret not doing as good as I could have. I do understand why i didn't do good and it was because I simply didn't want to- I didn't want to do anything. I just went to school and I was social, barely did a thing. Although i find when I have something important going on in life i tend to do better in school. Like when I was in the musical, I kept all my grades up.
Linda:What's a challenge you feel at the M.C right now?
Joey:A challenge? A challenge to stay on course. I was doing a lot better in the beginning than I'm doing now. I'm still doing good in biology and English, but I have a low mark in math. I don't think the school could help me, it's just me.
Linda:What are you passionate about?
Joey:You know what I'm passionate about? Fund raising. I think that we need to start fund raising because we do have a bit of money there but we are going to need more if we want to make as many changes as we can within this school, and then maybe someday into the community. so when you look at it it's going to take a lot of money. This is really going to go somewhere and we need to have the funds to back it up. We could have car washes, or a show, or even for the older students a pub crawl. It is important because if we want little things done (lounge, etc) we're going to need money. So why not start the fund raising?
Linda:Would you be interested in the idea of a talent show?
Joey:*BIG SMILES*
Our meeting has to be cut short because I have to go to work. Cya everyone!
1.5.08
Bad Dreams
"Last night I had the strangest dream, still a litle bit fuzzy can't remember it clean..."
1) To dream about the death of a loved one, suggests that you are lacking a certain aspect or quality that the loved one embodies. Ask yourself what makes this person special or what do you like about him. It is that very quality that you are lacking in your own relationship or circumstances. Alternatively, it indicates that whatever that person represents has no part in your own life. (http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary/d.htm).
2) To dream that you are sad, suggests that you need to learn from your disappointments and make yourself happy. Try not to dwell on the negative. (http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary/s.htm)
3) To dream of snow in all its forms, on trees, storms, etc., is a dream of very good omen which shows you will have success in business or investments, but if you should eat the snow this will presage a long period of sadness for the dreamer.( http://www.sleeps.com/dictionary/sss.html)
4) Dreaming about death is very common and it can be interpreted in many different ways. Death is usually a symbol of some type of closure or end. It implies an end to one thing and a beginning of another. Death dreams usually have positive symbolism. If you are the dead person in your dream, it could imply that you would like to leave all of your worries and struggles behind and begin anew. Dreaming about someone that you care about may express your fear about losing them. Dreaming that one of your parents died may express fear of loss, but it also may be an unconscious valve through which you release anger and other negative feelings. In some cultures dreaming about death and dying is a very good omen that represents longevity and prosperity. (http://www.maljonicsdreams.com/Dream_Dictionary/Death.htm)
5) Snow symbolises chilled and unexpressed emotions or emotions that have been repressed for an extended period of time. The snow in your dream suggests that you or someone else is emotionally cold, unresponsive, and indifferent. Clean, white snow may represent innocence, truth, peace and relaxation. Virgin snow, as you may see it covering a beautiful landscape, may represent new beginnings or a new way of seeing things and dirty snow may represent guilt.
(http://www.maljonicsdreams.com/Dream_Dictionary/Snow.htm)
Hmm.. All of these seem to be bullshit to me.. However, some things ring a bell.
I had a dream that my Dad and Uncle Chris died! My Nanny and I were together crying and I felt the emotions really strongly. We were out in a snowstorm, trying to round everyone up. I remember a bunch of people from the Cellar there and me having to tell them what happened, an then Dano said he was going to quit and I flippped out at him. Everyone was turning against me and I felt this crazy overwhelming sadness. I remember thinking to myself, "I will never be able to talk to my Uncle Chris again.. He was too young". But when I thought about my Dad I didn't feel as bad because I had seen it coming. I know I don't feel that way in real life about my Dad, and I know it was just a dream, but damn. how depressing.
1) To dream about the death of a loved one, suggests that you are lacking a certain aspect or quality that the loved one embodies. Ask yourself what makes this person special or what do you like about him. It is that very quality that you are lacking in your own relationship or circumstances. Alternatively, it indicates that whatever that person represents has no part in your own life. (http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary/d.htm).
2) To dream that you are sad, suggests that you need to learn from your disappointments and make yourself happy. Try not to dwell on the negative. (http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary/s.htm)
3) To dream of snow in all its forms, on trees, storms, etc., is a dream of very good omen which shows you will have success in business or investments, but if you should eat the snow this will presage a long period of sadness for the dreamer.( http://www.sleeps.com/dictionary/sss.html)
4) Dreaming about death is very common and it can be interpreted in many different ways. Death is usually a symbol of some type of closure or end. It implies an end to one thing and a beginning of another. Death dreams usually have positive symbolism. If you are the dead person in your dream, it could imply that you would like to leave all of your worries and struggles behind and begin anew. Dreaming about someone that you care about may express your fear about losing them. Dreaming that one of your parents died may express fear of loss, but it also may be an unconscious valve through which you release anger and other negative feelings. In some cultures dreaming about death and dying is a very good omen that represents longevity and prosperity. (http://www.maljonicsdreams.com/Dream_Dictionary/Death.htm)
5) Snow symbolises chilled and unexpressed emotions or emotions that have been repressed for an extended period of time. The snow in your dream suggests that you or someone else is emotionally cold, unresponsive, and indifferent. Clean, white snow may represent innocence, truth, peace and relaxation. Virgin snow, as you may see it covering a beautiful landscape, may represent new beginnings or a new way of seeing things and dirty snow may represent guilt.
(http://www.maljonicsdreams.com/Dream_Dictionary/Snow.htm)
Hmm.. All of these seem to be bullshit to me.. However, some things ring a bell.
I had a dream that my Dad and Uncle Chris died! My Nanny and I were together crying and I felt the emotions really strongly. We were out in a snowstorm, trying to round everyone up. I remember a bunch of people from the Cellar there and me having to tell them what happened, an then Dano said he was going to quit and I flippped out at him. Everyone was turning against me and I felt this crazy overwhelming sadness. I remember thinking to myself, "I will never be able to talk to my Uncle Chris again.. He was too young". But when I thought about my Dad I didn't feel as bad because I had seen it coming. I know I don't feel that way in real life about my Dad, and I know it was just a dream, but damn. how depressing.
29.4.08
I chuckled at this
THINGS ABOUT CHILDREN TO THINK ABOUT !
1. You spend the first two years of their life
teaching them to walk and talk. Then you spend
the next sixteen telling them to sit down and shut up.
2. Grandchildren are God's reward
for not killing your own children.
3. Mothers of teens now know why
some animals eat their young.
4. Children seldom misquote you.
In fact, they usually repeat word for word
what you shouldn't have said.
5. The main purpose of holding children's parties
is to remind yourself that there are children
more awful than your own.
6. We childproofed our homes,
but they a re still getting in.
1. You spend the first two years of their life
teaching them to walk and talk. Then you spend
the next sixteen telling them to sit down and shut up.
2. Grandchildren are God's reward
for not killing your own children.
3. Mothers of teens now know why
some animals eat their young.
4. Children seldom misquote you.
In fact, they usually repeat word for word
what you shouldn't have said.
5. The main purpose of holding children's parties
is to remind yourself that there are children
more awful than your own.
6. We childproofed our homes,
but they a re still getting in.
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